Timeless demons

After putting down the bag on sofa coming from office , I sat down beside it and watched the blades of fan moving in a slow motion like a dying person after taking a slow poision with living each day without knowing that the next day could be his last , walking those tired streets without anything on his mind. And suddenly the thoughts which for several days, I was dodging hit again and this time on the sweet spot inside me. 

Now days a monster inside me is growing bigger and bigger. Growing inside me eating me day by day little by little with its slow and steady pace. Its getting stronger and bigger but who cares not even I am serious about it. It all began long ago I made a pact with the devil and since then, I am feeling like something dark growing inside me eating me bit by bit ,piece by piece without stopping till the time it will eat me whole. I just keep letting that monster grow and letting me die inside me, leaving behind the damn world behind.And suddenly the fan in front of me became blurred and I losed my consciousness.

It was a dark alley with nothing around me , I couldn't see anything except that stark darkness. I shouted with full voice but no voice came to my rescue , sweat began to tremble my feet and i began shouting even more louder and fiercer than before. In few moments , a small light turned up and I saw a teenager standing , I ran towards him and he was facing the other side. I tapped his shoulder and asked "Where am I ? " He turned back and before he was to speak anything ,I was shocked and in a sudden surge of fear ,I stepped back and fall down. The teenager in front of me was myself . My 18 year old self. While getting back crawling , no words came out of my mind , suddenly two more kids appeared and they were also me. The me of 12 year and 6 year old , and in my mind I thought maybe I am hallucinating and I thought closing my eyes will stop all this , and I sat quiet closing my eyes. Suddenly the sweet 6 year old me said with a childish voice

 " We are you and you are we , Don't forget how much strong you were, Just don't let the world and those absurd things lose you. We all wanted you to be better than us , don't fear the world , take every step bit by bit ,you don't have to run , just hold on and take a deep breadth enjoy those grasses, those stars , that egoist sun and the lovely moon, those birds , those flowers, those wounds of yours like you used to do, enjoy those friends , that food, that air , those trees, those fishes in the water, talk with the wind, the flowers, the birds they are all to help you they will listen to you and guide you , we are all with you"

After coming home from school ,I threw the bag on one side and switched on the TV and started watching it eating food simultaneously. After few minutes I opened the cupboard , and in the lowest shelf were my stones , I talked with them and told about how we played in the school and how my knee got hurt and was bleeding, how the Hindi teacher scold the class, how in the recess I enjoyed the tiffin of my friend. And how the last period was of library where we watched superman.

And I continued talking about it about everything from cartoons to about those naughty stars, friends. In the evening we all kids played the mighty games of conquering the world, Ice - fire, and all those games which those bigger and taller people played. It was such a nice time winning those games and on some days it was so bad crying after a loss or a quarrel with those kids of my neighbour.

I opened my eyes and the blades of fan were still moving with a turtles pace but yet not giving up, moving even though was tired and wanted to stop. I wiped the sweat on my face and thought Thank god it was a dream. And I opened the newspaper ,the headline reads

 "There are several monsters inside us but a single human is enough to turn those monsters into angels"