Twisted Feelings

I only knew about you a little...years ago...Who knew one day I'd meet you again and get to know you more?

I know that there is something going on but I just can't put a finger on what exactly it is. Or maybe, just maybe, it's just my infatuation or I hope it really is. But somewhere I know that my instincts are not wrong. You might be an arrogant jerk to someone who really doesn't know you. But why do I get a kind warmth in your gaze when I look at you?

It's different and difficult, I know it is. Considering the tangled situations in our lives...But your mere presence feels good. At times, it's soothing, at times, it's irritating, and at times, it's frustrating because you confuse me with the way you are. Why oh why...Why can't it be a simple thing? Why oh why...why does it have to be a messed up situation?

I feel that our situation would be best if the things are unsaid. Because we never want to make the things gross...Do we? Why oh why...why does it have to be so uncomfortable at times?

I just wish that things would have been different. Or maybe, the way life happened...It's just for the best. Just know that you'd always be someone special, Just can't label you as a friend or an enemy or whatsoever. 

Never knew why people refer anyone as "Someone special" but now I know when people become that someone special and they can't really be labeled as anything, but they just feel close to our hearts.

It's just that...I...I care for you...and I just hope it would have been an easy situation for me to blurt it out. But I cannot even say these things out. Maybe, I just wish that you get the silent message if my instincts are true. Or maybe, if this is all a one-sided stupidity, I just wish that it wouldn't really get any worse and I hope that it gets easy for me to stay at ease.