14 days- On a lighter note.

Got the first call of the day from Dr. Murugan, he was kind enough to me as always. Tension Aagadeenga... Yes you are tested positive for Covid, these were his words and he cut the call after giving me some hope. Such a gloomy word "positive" became in these years. 

Informed the news to my dear, near and far ones. Amidst all positive thoughts from family and friends, Of course a few PSGites didn't spare to mock, make fun of me and that was one kind of a stressbuster as always. 

More than the illness, a state of confusion about 14 days of isolation & its uncertainty, worries on passing on the infection to my family, I was quite depressed thinking about missing the most awaited wedding of Sangeetha Pillai- one of my very good PGmate. Beautiful, intelligent, smart, funny etc..words may not suffice to define her persona. We call ourselves " Sisters from different mothers". Yes ! She is younger than me but I have learn many small yet remarkable things for life from her, most importantly enjoy the solitude and never be judge mental. May God bless loads of happiness on her new beginning of life.

Most memorable day it became because of more than 3 calls from a person who had literally forgotten to call me for more than 3 years. Yes, its my Appa !! He was shocked and couldn't digest the fact that her daughter got Covid. Finally my doubt on his love & affection for me vanished. Thanks to Covid !! I can forgive you for this one big reason.

Next day began and in one corner, I started feeling guilty for being a burden to my MIL, who is already 69 years old, though she manages household chores with her own swag, I could see things becoming difficult to her. All I can say to her is please bear with me as always.

Got my breakfast for the day left outside my room by my husband and I saw him standing in the terrace, 10 feet's away from me and my room, he was not wearing a face mask and I showed him signs to wear it, during which he gave his broad and cute smile- "His smile" yeah one of the most beautiful, innocent and purest thing on this earth according to me and I love it the most. Suddenly I realized how blind I have become to that smile in these few years because of the routine life hustle-bustle, I was thinking rather he had forgotten to smile these days and may be this separation from so called  "nagging wife' brought back that bright smile on him. God knows!!. But thanks to Covid again for reminding me the beauty of my husband's smile.

Symptoms came down after 5 days of illness, that's definitely because of my first dose of vaccine. Yes, I had been vaccinated then. Got to see a news channel claiming infection rate post first dose of vaccine to be 0.02%. Started wondering, am I also one among that minimal population. It was hard to digest. For which one of my friend was saying, hey it could be 2%, 20% too, namma alunga pinnadi zero edhuthutu munnadi zero podalamanu nenachirupainga..!! Quite possible, just on a funny note. However undoubtedly vaccine are the only hope to get rid of this mess and madness.

As the pain in the body started to subside, the pain of missing my loved one persisted, missed those morning ten minutes tea time, missed his never ending silly questions, missed his taunts which points me as a pathetic homemaker, missed gazing into his eyes, missed those constant arguments on random topics under the sun from the need for a change in Indian constitution to the rationale behind the abscond of that flat security guy who took 500 rupees from us, likewise the list continues...Lastly and very badly missed that priceless late nigh cuddle. !!! 

To cheer myself up and distract me from the haunting illness, ended up sinking into my own favorite music and movie numbers. Though as a typical 90's kid my all time favorite are maestro's and ARR's masterpieces, this time I was over and over again listening to " En iniya thanimaye... ( My sweet solitude) Such a situational song it became, with idhu varai kaana katchigalai unnudun kaanum velayile yenden kaadhal nee yenben..nee yenben.. ( when we savor sights afresh, my girlfriend you are) being my best-loved magical lyric. That's indeed Madhan karky's phenomenal piece of work.

I would proudly claim myself as old school, especially when it comes to music & movies, still my favorite numbers are those 80's & 90's classic ones like Keladi kanmani, Azhagan, Pudhu Pudhu Arthangal, Mouna Ragam etc. Saw one such timeless movie of Rajinikanth- Aarilirundhu Arupadhu Varai ( AAV). Its really hard to find a Tamilian across this globe who hasn't enjoyed Rajinikanth work at some point in life. Just like his millions and millions if fans, I truly admire his work and passion. But unlike his majority of fans, I adore him as a performer rather than a superstar. Movies like AAV, Jhony, Mullum malarum are best examples to wnitness his brilliance as an actor. I really doubt any legends of the film industry in the country could have brought such intense feel to those movies. Along with his millions of fans I have waited and shall be waiting forever not for his political appearance, but for another soulful movie like AAV.

Victory day came for DMK. Much awaited day for my dad. Since childhood I always wanted DMK to win just to see my dad happy. However I am fan of JJ's political career, truly just not for her accomplishment as a politician but for being able to stand and create her own path in this much prevailing male chauvinist society, how harder it would have been to get herself where she was, Quite a woman she's , of course a great inspiration to all women out there and many more generations to come. 

Though I really wanted to pen down those moments which made me feel lighter, things were just not so, as I could see and hear heart wrenching happenings around. Such a depressive phase...my bestie who is a good reader, unlike me was saying it looks like "Apocalypse", I had to google the word which means the complete final destruction of the world, why don't God/aliens do that apocalypse in a single shot rather than sending this virus. 

Its time to realize real happiness and peace is not in faraway trips, fancy packages and fabulous lives, but having found yourself and your loved ones hale and healthy. Could not think of anything more meaningful and genuine than the saying, " Noyatra Vazhve Kuraivatra Selvam" ( Health Is Wealth).