Unsent Love Letter #2

Dearest Deary, 

Moments by moments move past us, and you look at me with disbelief in the existence of such a crazy weirdo! Yup, you can't appreciate anything I do or habituated to. You are made of fire and air and I am made of water and earth. You are light on your feet and can't be contained in a single space. I am the opposite! Whenever you shake your head with your zipped lips in disbelief, I find it not discouraging but I fall for the expression. I do the same to you too yet I love the company of you. We never agree on a single thing yet we keep showing up for each other when in need as friends. 

Deep down I feel you are there for a reason but I don't know whether to teach me a lesson or to travel with me for the rest of my life. The very nature of unpredictability and uncertainty keeps the going interesting to me. You are mysterious and you love to keep it that way. I have picked so many secrets of yours before your conscious choice of keeping it to you. I don't understand whether you stopped saying things because I seem to act as if I know you better or you are not interested in me anymore. Either way, I am all into you. It's alright wherever I end up. 

Heartbreak is not new to me; yet, just because of the fear of it, I don't want to stop experiencing life. Too many years have passed by playing super safe. Now, after losing everything, I should have the courage to fall hard without the thought of consequences. Everything about you brings joy to me. Day by day, you look more beautiful to me. There are numerous inhibitions and fears, yet I walk steadily towards you. Know not where this path is leading me. Just looking into your eyes I ignore all the hurdles between you and me. Friends warn me to notice the red flags as my vision is clouded with the joy of love! 

Sadly, all red flags that you evidently hold and wave at me are the ones you want me to notice and back off. I pick them all but the things that you hide innately make me follow you like a puppy. Indeed, I am scared of my blind intuition that says you are right for me. You are a hopeless romantic like me though you hide it so secretly. You want something constant to hold on to though you put up a show that you don't believe in anything that is constant. Babe, every now and then whenever I get comfortable with something, life has plans to bring in drastic change. Still, I don't stop longing for something constant... Nowadays, I wake up with a wish for you to be my constant!

With loads of love, 

Your everlasting friend.