It's not about pain and pleasure
It's not about pain and pleasure
"Oh, Kavya... what happened to you? why are you so sad dear...? "
For the last few days, Kavya was running a bit distracted. I didn't even feel like going to the office.
For two-three days, Mansi kept thinking that her health will deteriorate or she is lost due to excessive work. But today morning when she came out from the washroom, her eyes were red, it seemed as if she had come cryingAnd when Mansi could not help it, he asked Kavya.
"What's the matter?" Why is Kavya so sad?
Did someone say something?"
"No, no one said anything, just like that."
Kavya started trying to hide her face by speaking but there were tears that were not taking the name of stopping. Anyway, when the mind is sad and wants to cry, if someone shows sympathy in such a way, then it comes to cry even more, Kavya was also in the same condition at this time.
Mansi also did not insist much because she too had to leave for the office and at that time Kavya did not even want to tell the reason for her crying.
Even in the office during the day, Mansi kept thinking about what could be the reason behind Kavya being sad and crying secretly. By the way, Kavya was one of those who remained happy by nature and maintained courage even in adverse circumstances. Mansi thought, going home today, she will definitely ask Kavya the reason for her being distracted and upset.
Then in the evening when Mansi came back from the office, she saw that Kavya had already come today.
She freshened up and made two cups of coffee and intentionally did not bother about the morning conversation.
Suddenly Kavya herself spoke.
"Is it a crime to be divorced? Then why can't we divorced women lead a normal life?"
Mansi understood that someone must have touched her sore spot. Anyway, reticent Kavya rarely spoke, that's why Mansi did not think it appropriate to stop her in the middle. Kavya further said,
"In society, a single woman is not seen with a good eye and people take single women very lightly, keep thinking of taking advantage of themThe pain of being divorced, being separated from the husband is no less painful than the one who has to listen to the taunts of the society. Many women tolerate the excesses of husband and in-laws because of this fear that "what will people think of her?"
In her tears, Kavya went on to say, "We girls are taught from the beginning that the husband's house is her own home. It is not good for a woman to live alone in the society, she always needs the support of a man." I agree, support is needed to liveBut in a relationship where there is no love between husband and wife and there is no sense of respect, what is the point of staying together keeping your existence secondary. And society does not understand the pain of such a self-respecting woman and cannot accept her as a normal woman.
Kavya wanted to express all her pain today. Meanwhile, Mansi brought another cup and did not stop Kavya from speaking, but kept listening carefully. Kavya further said,
"Even people start doubting his character. Sometimes there is slander on him. It is planted in her mind that she has been rejected by her husband or she might not have lived up to her family responsibilities.
And if fed up with unwanted relationship, if the wife takes the initiative of divorce, then people make a wrong impression about her that there must be a deficiency in this woman onlyThis is the reason why the woman has to hide the fact that she is a divorcee.
"So what, you hid the fact that you're divorced in your office?"
When Mansi asked in surprise, Kavya said,
"That's what made the mistake but the day before yesterday my sister-in-law's friend Swati joined in the office and she told everyone about my divorce. Since then everyone is looking at me with strange eyes, and people raised many questions on the fact that I used to wear vermilion on purpose to hide my reality. Frankly, Mansi! After all this, I do not feel like going to office at all. Don't know what everyone must be thinking about me. And they must be making fun of the fact that I lied about being married even now. How will I face them tomorrow. I will mail my resignation now.Now I will not be able to work in that office.
The helplessness Kavya saw Mansi while speaking, Mansi fell in love with her and also got angry at the double mindedness of the society.
In manifestation Mansi said," Kavya, you have not done any wrong thing. By divorcing a drunken and characterless husband like Ramesh. And whether anyone understands or not, I understand your pain and am with you in every situation". Mansi consoled Kavya by holding her hand.
Seeing his sympathy, Kavya hugged him and said crying, "What would have happened to me if you had not helped me find a job by staying with youFather has retired and he still has the responsibility of marriage of two more younger sisters. If I had lived with him in Raipur then, people's taunts would have ruined the life of my parents as well. Then because of me there would have been a problem in the marriage of both the younger sisters, they would have separated. That's why I came to you."
Kavya again gratefully said, "Thank you Mansi! You have really fulfilled the duty of a true friend. I do not understand how I will repay you. Yes, I must say that I will not go to that office again. Job here I will leave and do a job somewhere else and will shift somewhere else as soon as I settle down a bit".
"Hey, Kavya! Have you gone mad? I am your friend and I am not doing you any favor". Mansi said.
And "Yes, you have to go to office tomorrow with pride. Being divorced is not a crime or a shame, but you are very courageous and independentVery few girls have the courage to walk out of a toxic relationship. You are my hero".
While speaking, Mansi increased Kavya's confidence in herself, in her existence.
Then both of them ordered pizza after a long time and ate it with pleasure. For some time Kavya had forgotten all her sorrows.
But when Kavya lay down on the bed to sleep
Even without wanting to go into the past.
When Kavya was thinking of getting a job after studying management, then her father was going to retire in a few months, he said, there are two more sisters, so at least marry the elder daughter Kavya while she is employed. In such a situation, when Ramesh's relationship came in front, his happiness knew no bounds.
Kavya me
t Ramesh only once. He was very handsome to see but he did not talk much. But Kavya didn't pay much attention thinking that since the relationship has come from Ramesh, he definitely likes her and then there was no talk of any more dowry from the boys' side. After the relationship was fixed, Kavya had a talk with her in-laws two or three times. Kavya's mother-in-law and sister-in-law also used to talk to her with such love as if honey was dripping. However, Ramesh would talk very briefly and hang up while Kavya wanted to hear her appreciation and some romantic talk from her future husband.
When he casually told his mother, the mother said angrily,
"Hey, Ramesh Sharif is a boy, so he doesn't talk unnecessarily. Then it is an arranged marriage. In such a situation, the boy and girl talk carefully before marriage, otherwise there is a fear of breaking the relationship, there is no love marriage that both of them keep doing Illu Illu all day long.
On this talk of mother, both the younger sisters standing nearby also laughed and Kavya was left shivering.
Then everyone happily started preparing for the weddingIt was the first marriage of Kavya's house, that's why her father Dinanathji spent beyond his capacity. Everyone was very happy on his marriage.
The reality came in front of Kavya after marriage that Ramesh had an affair with a Muslim girl, the people of the house were not ready for an inter-caste marriage, so he had to marry Kavya compulsorily, then he was also very addicted to alcohol.
Apart from helping his father's business for a while, he used to wander all day long, often spent nights with his girlfriend and was rude to Kavya. The most troubling thing is that the family members do not say anything to him and the mother-in-law used to coerce him and used to taunt him, "We had married Ramesh thinking that he would forget that witch in love with a beautiful wife. But this The daughter-in-law could not bind him to herself.
While Kavya understood very well that by saying this, he is covering up his own shortcomings and that of his unworthy son.
When everyday chikchik and Ramesh's rude attitude was becoming unbearable for Kavya. Moreover, Ramesh sometimes used to raise his hand on Kavya on mother's instigation.
She probably would have tolerated it but once seeing many intimate pictures of Ramesh with his girlfriend Ruhi in his mobile, when she told Ramesh that now Kavya is his wife and he should end all relations with Ruhi, Ramesh clearly said Diya that he loves Ruhi a lot and Kavya under the pressure of family membersis married.Kavya should never expect him to love her.
After hearing so much, the dam of Kavya's patience broke. And she thought it appropriate to get out of this relationship. Her self-respect and entire existence had been hurt by facing the brunt of rejection almost every day. She got divorced soon by mutual consent.
Even Kavya's heart was filled with tears while signing the divorce papers. But he had chosen self-respect instead of his regular insults. So the journey ahead was lonely and probably not easy.
After the divorce, even at her parents' house, she used to hear different things about herself from relatives and outsiders. She and her parents tried many times to make everyone believe that Ramesh was at fault. And Kavya has given divorce but people kept saying that,
"There must be some fault in Kavya that her husband left her."
Some people have not even gone so far as to say that,
"If Kavya has gone ahead and given divorce, then she has turned out to be very hot-tempered. Such a girl can only break someone's house, but cannot settle down.
Means in both the situation the blame falls on Kavya only.Now Kavya had almost stopped even going out of the house. She was forced to give herself a cursed life.
When she could not understand anything further after the divorce, then one day she got a call from her childhood friend Mansi. After knowing all the things, Mansi gave a lot of courage to Kavya. She was still unmarried and was working on the post of area manager in a big company in Bilaspur and lived alone. He warmly welcomed Kavya and also helped her a lot in finding a new job.
On the very first day of her new job, in order to avoid everyone's questions, she hesitated and told a lie that she is married and her husband has just gone abroad for work. Before reaching the office, she would often draw a light line of vermilion with lipstick, which was enough to make everyone shut their mouths and look at them with respect. She would have erased it before coming home. Khamkha did not want to tell Mansi that how narrow-minded her office people are and how much she has to bear, she did not want to make Mansi more sad and upset.
Thinking all this, he didn't realize when he fell asleep.
When I woke up the next morning, before going to the office, again my hard-earned confidence started shaking.
Then Mansi gave her a lovely dress and asked her to come wearing it. Kavya was looking very smart in a brown shirt. Mansi said that she will drop Kavya to office today.
Kavya stepped into the office with a lot of confidence today. And today he didn't even apply fake vermilion. She wanted to prove that being divorced is not a crime. If there is love and proper respect in marriage, then it is excellent, otherwise there is no justification to remain bound in an unwanted relationship just fearing the taunts of the society.
Men and women become complementary to each other by being bound in marriage, if they are constantly insulted in marriage and do not get love and respect, then it is better to live alone with self-respect. By the way, Kavya still had a desire to find a partner worthy of her heart, but there was no hurry for her.
Earlier she had decided to be self-sufficient, standing on her own feet and controlling her emotions was not an easy task, but Kavya's friend Mansi and family members also indirectly supported her.
A few months later, when Kavya was promoted and Vikas, who worked together in the office, despite knowing everything about her, proposed marriage after being impressed by her qualities, then Kavya's happiness knew no bounds. Mansi and all the family members were congratulating her and today Kavya is seen after a long time.
I was remembering some lines of my grandmother.
"Yatr Nari pujyante
Ramanti tatr devta "
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