So Here I Am



Here I am

Down again.

Breathing hard

Torn again.

I wish to win the world.

But the world doesn't wish me.

I wish I was better

But I keep losing.

I wish I was stronger

But tears keep streaming.

Why do I fight?

If I keep losing?

What does hold me?

Keeps me? Loves me?

Shoulders are burdened

But I keep thinking

I will not give up

I have yet to solve all the mysteries

I have yet to see the oceans clashing with the sandy shore.

I have yet to catch butterflies in my hands.

Feel their soft wings flutter and let them go.

I have yet to feel the grass on my feet without feeling I am about to let go.

I have yet to kiss the one I love and whisper the words "I do"

I have yet to cradle the one I would love forever and hear their childish babble in my very soul.

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I have yet to press my hands to the sun to feel it's core.

So here I am

Fighting again.

My breath keep stuttering

And I keep faltering

So here I am

Standing again.

I do not wish to lose

My love for life too big to die

So here I am

Breathing again.

With Faltering steps.

And blistering hands.

Surrounding myself with the sounds of life

Here I am still standing.

I will not kneel

I will not cry.

The world keeps weeping

So I wish to bring about a smile.

So here I am

I am willing to fight

I am willing to raise and hold hands

I am willing to sing lullabies.

So here I am

Willing, always willing to care.

Why shall I falter?

Why should I despair?

Because here you are listening,

Listening to my very soul.