"It Was Unexpected For Me This To Happen, But I Got Reply From Uncertain."

I started living in the dark phases of my life. My happy healthy mind was distorted completely. No matter how hard I try to be normal or live happy life, there is something in my mind trying to develop different personality in me, making me feel worse. 

Those bad phases of my life started living with me, and I started living dead. 

"Be attentive, Focus, concentrate" are the words, I started hating to the core of my life"

Suffering from mental illness, having anxieties, getting you panic attacks can lead you to depression in no time. 

It's been three years, I continued living with this, thinking every day that this pain with end up soon. But every time I manage to come out of one phase, the next phase is already for me to the door to enter. No, it's not possible for me to keep the door close, since I am not deciding my phases, they are involuntary and coming to me as they belong to me. 

Having all those mental illnesses, where I lost my own self, the real me or my genuine personality, I met the drawer notes chat partner. 

Unexpected to any reply, I left a note under the drawer for 1st shift worker asking for chocolates. 

I searched for the notes next day out of curiosity, I found return message on it telling my tommy is already sorry for it. I laughed and left another note under the drawer, I thought we are done now. But interestingly I was wrong again. There was another note with her name and another note wrapped with chocolate. 

She is the one giving the name of this session as "Drawer notes" and I loved it. Now she has become the daily routine of my life. Writing her notes and wait for reply till next day. 

That note was the only excitement in my life. Her notes made me feel positive and makes me realize that I am still alive. 

I was astonished with her treat. I read the notes every time, it's a pleasure.