The Monster Inside
The Monster Inside
And just as I was learning to live with it all,
There came another one,
Sending me to my knees once again,
Sending me to the den I had just escaped.
Why?
Why doesn't it ever leave me alone?
Why does it only come when I'm trying to be happy?
When I'm just beginning to feel all that's around me?
Why am i not like the rest?
Why do they deserve it all?
Why do I keep lying to myself?
It's time to accept- happiness is just a tale
So many wishes but none yet to come true
At night it's me versus it
In the morning I stir it into coffee
When is this episode going to end?
In silence I have created a masterpiece
My tears have sealed their vision
In tears
The knife slides easily through my palm
And guess what
I hate it
But i just can't help it
It's killing me
And i just can't fight it
I know I'm playing with fire
But the more i make attempts to tame it
The more it consumes
Everything around is beautiful
But it is the beauty that hurts
I used to hate the dark
But now
Ts the only place i feel invisible enough
I make up excuses to change focus
I can't let anyone notice
I hide it inside like there's nothing wrong
But sometimes the list can get really long...