Broken And Beyond
Broken And Beyond2 mins 210 2 mins 210
"Can you multitask?" She asked
Yes! Actually, I'm losing my mind and chilling with you at the same time.
With that statement, again my version of love became what my heart couldn't filter
Now that I'm going through hell, everyone around me wears angel wings.
"She has a good heart", they say" but it has been hurt ... A lot
The hardest part of all is to accept my reality
That which I can no longer run away from
As I am going through my own kind of hell, that of loving you in my sleep only to be alone when I wake up
You were the only one able to rightly roll the dice
I broke my own rules for you to accommodate
Little did I know you wouldn't stay till late
Sijui nini iliniambia since i was O naeza donate kila kitu kwako. Including my heart
I loved you more than you would have ever known. In fact, more than I could ever show.
But you still left even if all I ever wanted was you
I deserved someone who was willing to stay.
And just so you know,
You hurt me so bad that the pain lost meaning
I didn't deserve that and you know it too
I was there for you always but the best you could do was to be my 'sometimes'
I've not yet let go, that I won't deny
Even if I know it takes letting go to realize you were holding on to nothing all along
But maybe one day
I'll quit you
One day soon enough
My heart will learn to accept what my mind already knows.