Shall We Pretend Like It...

"I cannot resist myself from holding you.I crave so much more than just a physical connection. I crave words and depth. I crave to know who you are, and from where you came from, your desires and fears. I yearn to know every inch of you beyond the surface. You make me feel alive.You know I have hardly slept since yesterday .I don't even know you want to hear from me any longer, my mind is pretty blank." he spoke in a passionate tone.

And she gazed into his eyes. What to do next? Words fumbled in her mind .His simplicity,humility and truthfulness were compelling her to think of him and she never takes much time to know how a person is...though she wanted to say ,Sorry, I really can't reciprocate to your feelings. I want you to understand, I really like you as a person but I am already in love with the person who is my soulmate. I can't do whatever you ask me to do. I am not that kind of a girl.....Some says,Truth is stranger than fiction and so is what you plan to say and what you actually do ....sometimes it turn out to be strangest!...She could not say no because she just simply enjoyed his company.He sits silently and she kept talking about everything in the world sometimes with giggles and other times silently.

And with all the loaded intensity came the reply, "Oh! Please don't misunderstand me, all I am saying is forget your fears and feel the magic of expression and if you wish to leave at any point of time after knowing my intentions...its fine.If you need space I can disappear from your life altogether and never to be seen again."He had thought himself to be immune to things like crush or love till he met her because he is eldest of his siblings and feels responsible for his sister and family before his every move.It was her benevolent soul and vivacious nature that made him fall head over heels in love with her,her spell made him to open his heart.

'If we have understood each other very well then its worth it and I want to take this chance.'She gives reason to herself because in him she finds a reflective mirror of her own.It became hard for her to rein her heart which was craving to hear him for once....Once in that big house where rooms are big enough but are disturbingly quiet, having balconies and windows on all four sides but miss those lively vibes.

Also she firmly believes that there are certain things in life which are uncontrollable ,so better go with the flow because there are two things to aim at in life- to get what you want and after that admire the worth of it to cherish in real and only the wisest of mankind achieve the second and with this thought she closed all the reasons to give up and she went with the flow of time, desires and wishes.

For her talking to him was an expression of affection which makes her feel good and elated.Still there are certain things which she is not comfortable doing and wants him to respect it. She had no problem in exchanging thoughts but don't want to get closer than necessary.Its because he might get close to her simply due to the heat of the moment and will be forgotten soon under some new relations,routine chores of life,responsibilities,lack of time and interest and she's is not ready for this negelection rather no investment of emotions in pass time friendship and half hearted relationship.What if his passionate feelings settle down like a fizz as if it never existed?Why to explore the road where pain will inevitably come after happiness.But,still his words makes her feel better.

There was a long awkward silence as it happens to be before a raging torrent of passion and emotions underneath which broke down by him in a way, 'Do you have any idea about the expression of affection and platonic love? You really don't get it! Do you?What to do and please do not try to escape my question...don't leave margin for misunderstanding."

She was falling short of words and with all the tears in her eyes out came the reply...'Usually I don't even speak to strangers and I do not encourage them speaking to me either. I am breaking all my rules in your case because you are very special to me and that's how I express my affection and I am unable to acknowledge your platonic ways of love when you come closer to me in such a way that my breath gets blocked by yours. Do you know what does it mean to me to share all the words in my mind without putting any filters?Do you realize what it means to me when I allow you to explore every inch of me?' Do you really feel when I rest my head on your beating heart?Did you ever noticed I cannot keep my eyes open whenever you kissed my forehead?...and if answer to these questions is No! then I do not want to say anything and if your answer is YES! then what makes you to say that you have forgotten all such moments like we never shared those magical moments before she ends up saying, she felt the loosened grip and tears blurred her vision.

He whispered, '"I know you are hurt, I am sorry.Try to understand...at least you could try for once...its not easy for me to say all this but yes I admit to say such disheartening words to you simply because....I've to unplug myself from you to plug in a new switch...I really do not want to say this but I have to ...its my destiny and I'm trying to accept it with smiles.I'll not refrain from you that I can promise but I need your support too.I cannot be happy if you are not happy just because of me...Please help me...or let us help each other and lend our hands to each other to maintain that great relationship with patience and perseverance. Please!Shall we pretend like it never happened?"