Understanding Myself

Why we expect so much from people to understand ourself. I keep chasing people to understand me. I was just trying to understand myself. I get influence very easily from the surrounding. It is very difficult for me to go as people are doing around me. I mean copying them. It hurts sometimes so much when people keep taunting me and unfortunately I have no choice to tolerate. I don't like to say thing again and again. It frustrate me a lot.

 All this is affecting my health so much. I am getting very exhausted these day mentally and physically. Unfortunately I can't do anything if these things is affecting my health too. I have no choice. Yes, I can say to people clearly what I want from them but then end of the day I get alone. I need to co-operate with people.

Today, when my father was closing the door. He puts two locks. One in the front door and another one for the second door (brown one). It was taking time to open it I was standing and keep watching when my father was unlocking the door. I was about to say do fast papa as I was very tired. But thought let it be if it is taking little time than before. I didn't let myself get irritated by this. As I used to get very easily. When something I want eagerly and when that doesn't happen on that particular moment I get frustrated.

I think to stand with patience was a different kind of achievement for me today.