Journal writing day 2

I have a general habit of writing and whatever comes to my mind I suddenly start writing. Whether I am talking to someone like I am imagining a person and saying my thoughts to them. Maybe it's related to fighting between me and other people and the dialogues I use there to keep them shut up. I immediately write it in my diary. 

What I did yesterday the whole day, was my daily schedule to wake up slowly at 12 am. Checked my Facebook, and Instagram. Then going to fresh and other activities. This is the time I hate a lot. I mean I hate it because, for a long time, I have been trying to wake up in the early morning but it just doesn't happen to me. Because I have no goal of what to do after waking up. Just doing the daily same work makes me bored and unmotivated. 

For a long time, I have been trying to write a good story or poem but just doesn't happen. One of the reasons I found because I don't have a good vocabulary or words. I don't have a good language to speak. 

Sometimes, I feel When I write a diary or journal I become too honest. Will it be wrong? Will it make me down or go to wrong way I don't know. I just wrote what I felt. It feels like a magic. When I don't write I don't have any words to write and when I start writing I just keep writing. I go with the flow. I won't stop until my thoughts stop. When I do journaling generally I sit in a quiet place I mean no one in the room. So that, I can go into my imagination room and see what is happening and write. Isn't it a good tip for writing and making my mind blank?