My first journal writing

Today will be my first journal writing of this contest. It's been a while I have stopped writing as I was doing some other work like my counseling work and playing flute. Or sometimes thinking what to do after this. I don't know what to say this I am confused or what. I was thinking to keep writing journal as I am not that good enough to make story from imagination. May be I am just lazy to use my mind. I have observed myself that I generally start writing when I am alone at home and no body is with me to talk. I just have to pour out whatever in my stomach by writing or speaking. 

I always be too honest when I have to write something about me. I gives me strength and peace and specially wisdom to know my self. I feel very very relax after diary writing because I feel I am talking to someone. I keep saying I am not liking my job. However, counseling other and healing them is a very good job in other words I got an opportunity to heal others. 

Today, I took holiday from my work and kept sleeping at home. I wasn't sleeping  properly. Just kept lying on bed. From long months I am trying to wake up early and do meditation for sometime just say half an hour. Meditation helps me alot by keeping my mind active. And specially my communication improves. After meditation I speak confidently and smoothly my words comes out. My counseling skills also go in high peak. I mean to say I use all skill that I have learnt in my course work. Many people say I need to be social and speak. They say I have so much fear in me. Yes I had anxiety issues before but now I am very calm and relaxed person. 

That's all for today.