The Clouding Uncertainty!

Dear Diary,

As we board the puzzling rollercoaster ride of life, we go on uncovering the mysteries that camouflage and as we progress, beautiful blooms! But progress isn’t gifted, it has to be made, ups and downs, loss and breakthrough, all part and parcel of life! However, somewhere between achieving our goal, we feel unsure, unsure if we are good enough to crack the code. This mutual discomfort is hard to outrun, we keep on assuring ourselves of our ability to fulfil achievements but soon there comes a time, when not giving up is unbearably inevitable.

The lockdown changed many, even me, from when I believed in even the most muted chirps of hope, now even wondering about my next milestones seems problematic. I aimed at great heights for the reason that I had those who helped me believe, however, the lockdown separated me from those who were the structure I relied on, the ones who’ll cheer me up anytime, the one’s who’ll be the sky I would soar on. I keep fighting, fighting mentally till I can, but combat without my army that supported me seems undoable. Following the trail of hope and abruptly coming to a dead-end, jerks one out of their decided part and the same happened to me, and now here I am writing, following the next trail, I spotted, hoping for a new beginning and trusting the universe.