My Parents Changed?

It is said that Parents love their children a lot. Since, childhood they care for you they became happy with your smile. From your face they know are you happy or sad? 

But, if I say it is not with me. What will you say?? Yes, As I am growing day by day this affection from parents is losing day by day. It is like I feel not happy and comfortable with them. It is not my behavior change towards them but yes their behavior changed a lot for me. They don't feel happy by seeing me. I never saw that warmth and happiness for me. Neither on any festival nor on my birthday. They are not even giving a blessing to me now. As I am at my house 24*7 they behave like they want space, they want to live without us. 

I don't know why? I don't have any boyfriend not I found anywhere with any boy. 

Not just one time my time they show me that they don't want me in their family. Recently in someone's wedding when our turn comes for group photo with the newly wedded couple. I was about to leave my chair my mom came towards me and said keep this bag till we come back after the photo. 

Another incident today they decide to make a plan for a visit to Haridwar and my mum said we can leave our children at home for 2 days. I feed devasted they don't want to go with us. 

I don't know why they are like this? It is true that I have not clear any competitive exam. I am working hard. I never make any wish to them never pressurize them to bring something for me. I keep my feelings with my self but still they are like this one. 

Now the thing is they don't even find by looking into my eyes that I was crying. If they saw me crying just shout at me why I am doing this. It doesn't bother them I am well or not. 

I can only find the reason for all this is I am not like other children who went away to study in college. However, they are the reason for this. They were not ready to spend much money on college out of my town. I am like a liability on them. They want to live free from us. 

If this they want to do then why they gave birth to me if they don't want to celebrate my birthday. They don't even find that I have eaten anything today or not. In front of guests, they feel bad to show guests they have to spend money on me. 

This is the letter that I wrote to express my thoughts so that I feel weight-free for some time. This happens with you. 

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