Love or friendship

Today, you decided to stay back again. It's another night, you and me, trying hard to stay up, talking, drinking and finally dozing off near the living room couch, our favourite songs still playing in loop. We say goodbyes every morning, just to meet again that day or a few days later, just to relive the cycle, just to do the same things over and over, together.

These days, I feel weird. My heart keeps bubbling up everytime you say something, everytime you smile. I feel like there is just this fine line between what we are today and what we could be tomorrow, and I struggle , trying not to topple over, not to cross the line. But then where exactly does this line between friendship and love begin?. Where are those lines I should never cross, to pretend I am not in love with you? Or are we already way past the boundaries, trying to figure out what the other one feel? 

May be I am just thinking things over. May be these days, I have too much time in my hands that I am mistaking comfort , familiarity and friendship for love?. May be these days, I am too starved for drama, that I keep wanting to cross the lines, to test the limits?. Ah. . . . There is this weird longing to do , to say , to finally be honest about what I feel, to let myself go. But what if there is no going back? What if after crossing the lines, you lose the person , the friend you had in the beginning. What if in the end, you are left with nothing? .

You decided to stay back again today and I am lost in thought of the lines we could never cross, in friendship. Or are we already way past that?