Emptiness

Anna was writing her diary

“ I am completely feeling empty, I don’t want to talk with anyone, I just want to disappear, many things going through in my life but nowadays I don't care about anything or anyone, neither I am sad or neither I am happy I am just empty. everyone is so mean nowadays sometimes I feel like I want someone to push me to motivate me to listen to my problems to be with me, someone who can I trust, whom I can trust, I can believe that someone is there for me whenever I need, someone who can stay forever with rest of my life, but the other side what I experience that of this world that no one is permanent, no one is there for you, everyone has their problems, their perspective, their life, you have to face your problems by your own, solve it your own, you have to do it no one is going to do for you, I am being confused between this two things but I am mature that enough to know that life is going too much tough I should become stronger because I know the rule of life "everything is going to off one day", you should settle with it, you should prepare for letting go something and accept new things but my nature is not convincing with temporary things. I sometimes question the dissections that I should not do that but maybe everything happens for a reason.”

Anna putting this type of random thought in her diary.

That was unexpected how was life is turning the pages one by one and we are sometimes not capable to read it or understand it. but maybe everyone's perspectives are different and maybe you should be strong and grow yourself a better way.

It was 12:30 of the night she was complete her work and trying to sleep, she was rolling on the bed but her mind reminds the things which are hurt her, lost of parents, surviving in adulthood that's not easy for anyone but she is strong enough to deal with anything now.

Fortunately, her eyes get off and she went to sleep. she saw someone who is passing through her shop and smile at her but she didn’t recognize that person. it was a dream but there is always a person who passes through her shop and smiles at her. Who was that person? Maybe someone who likes her? maybe not .she was not finding and love or care she wants to find out her peace.

she is still surviving with emptiness, finding her inner peace. a new day isn't given any type of energy to her, something is bothering her.

(To be continued..)