Another Chance

It is so beautiful to admire the ocean at night. She frightens us with her vigorous roar and with her arrogance and her restlessness. But also she looks relaxed, calm, and silent. People do have the characteristics of our mother nature. It too impacts everyone's life. 

The rising waves have a longing desire to touch the moon. It tries, again and again to touch the moon and fails in its countless attempts. It will try forever because of the beauty of the moon shining in the dark sky. It's really worth it. What if this too impacts people's life. Does it create an impact in real life? Yes, it has and it will have more impact on human life. And that I/We call it "Love".

Love is complicated in this world and especially in India it is more complicated. We have evolved so much and at present we are civilized. And trying to become more civilized every day. But a breakup has never been easy for anyone. It is shivering even to spell the word "Breakup." And a drop of tears roll on my cheeks and touches the sand. I started crying so hard even the roar of the sea became silent to listen to my struggle. I was broken and frustrated. I knelt down and begged for peace. This time she(Ocean) fail to calm me down. Her arrogant waves and soothing wind failed to calm me this time. 

"Aahsiv, what are you doing here? We are waiting for you there. We arranged everything only for you. Please don't ruin it", I heard Jhanvi pleading to come back to the party hall. 

"I can't do this Jhanvi and I won't. Please leave me alone", I denied.

"Why are you ruining your own life for her? You have wasted 4 years in your life.", She cried.

"I feel like it happened yesterday and I don't care about my life. Now please leave me alone and don't call me again.", I said.

Jhanvi came near me and slapped hard. When she raised her hand to slap again, Sam came and held her hand and said, "Hey, what are you doing Jhanvi? If he is not interested, then let's leave him alone."

"He is an idiot Sam, he is ruining his own life. We have to do something and make him stop hurting himself.", She cried.

A slap made me angry and I shouted, "You ruined my life Jhanvi. You did this to me. You are responsible for what happened to me. Please now leave me alone."

I felt so hard inside when I said this and I thought I shouldn't have said this. 

Jhanvi closed her mouth with her hand and started sobbing. She ran away towards the party hall and Sam followed her. 

I turned towards the goddesses of the ocean "Samuthra" and begged for peace again. She failed this time too. I could feel my heart rate rising and the tip of my tongue touched my upper jaw and I spelled the name "Riya". 

Yes, Riya is her name. Riya is a blissful name for me. Spelling her name made me comfortable these days. Riya is everything to me. I have never imagined my life without her. She is more than anything to me. I love her deep down from my heart. I felt my love only after our breakup. And this was one of the mistakes in my life. I am the only reason for my breakup. 

I saw Manasi and Ishaan come running towards me and said, "Aahsiv, Why did you say this to her?"

"I have said the truth Manasi and I know you will also accept this.", I replied with a hard tone.

"I know, but she is trying so hard to make you get out of this nightmare. Why are you denying the truth? Riya is not going to come again. She is happy and gone forever. She won't come again. We did everything to make her come again, but she denied it. I am repeating Aahsiv, why are you denying to accept the truth.", She tried to console me.

"I don't want this damn truth and don't need this. And I am not ready to accept it. She means everything to me. Please I need her back and I can't live without her", I sat on the sand and closed my face with my hand, and started crying.

Ishaan tried consoling me but he seemed helpless. 

After a few minutes, my mind somewhat settled and I said, "You know what Manasi? I did everything to forget her. You know how hard I tried to forget her. I did everything, but the three years of my life with her spoils everything whatever I do to erase her memories."

"My sister once said to me that don't be too close to her and she also said not to spend more time together. She advised me not to do these. Now I understand how wise her words are." I said with a stern tone. 

I took a deep breath and started saying, "Yesterday I went to my grandparent's home, I used to spend more time there. I thought they can heal me whatever I was going through. But it ended up with the memories we had together in there. I called Riya three years back to my grandparent's home. She only stayed for 15 minutes but we had a wonderful time together."

"No matter where I go and no matter what I do, everything around me reminds me of her. It's like everywhere it's written "Riya". She is so much into me. And also I can't deny that only because of me, she left. I shouldn't have blamed Jhanvi for this. I shouldn't have brought Jhanvi in between us. I did a big mistake in my life."

I felt the cool breeze splashed a drop of tear into hundreds of small droplets. It repeated several times but I am not seem convinced by anything happening around there. She failed by all her attempts. Everyone seems helpless, they are out of words. Everyone is tired of supporting me. Everyone seems frustrated by my behavior. It's been two years since we broke up. My friends supported me to get rid of the memories, but the memories didn't and it won't fade away. It is deeply wounded and rooted and it's so hard to let it go.

Suddenly, everything around me blacked out and I fell on the sand. I heard everyone calling my name loudly. I never have hurt Jhanvi and she is not responsible for what happened on that day. I am responsible for everything. These thoughts swallowed me and prevented me from getting back to normal. 

After some time I murmured unconsciously, "Don't leave me Riya, I need you and we can grow older together." 

With these words, I completely blacked out and Monu splashed water on my face. I opened my eyes and they made me sit on a chair. They gave me a knife to cut the cake. I can't even guess what's happening there. I read the words written on the cake. It's written as "Let's forget Riya and move on". Now everything became clear to me and they were again trying to make this happen and it was a breakup party. I took the cake in my hand and threw it away. Everyone stood shocked and I ran away to avoid everything that was happening there. 

I am a poor guy who fell in love with a girl. All I am waiting for, is another chance, which was continuously denied by her. Either she or life has to give me "Another Chance". I am sure that my life definitely will...