My first love 💗

While talking to a friend, a glimpse of you is all I got 

You were looking in my direction, or so I thought 

To stop smiling like an idiot, so hard I fought 

In spite of all efforts, by you I was caught 

 

When our eyes met, I quickly looked away 

You would come and speak to me, is all I wanted to pray 

When we spoke for the first time, that special day 

It was as if everything had stopped; except you, all became grey

It wasn’t love at first sight is what I would say

That seems so overrated, some people call it cliché 

 

Your smile was so reassuring, so gentle, so pure 

For dealing with the worst of days, it was my cure 

All I wanted at the time, was you, I was sure

The way you spoke gave me a comfort which made me feel secure 

 

I did have feelings for you 

It seemed like you were aware, you knew

Honestly, I had hoped you would have them too 

But to cope with reality I added vodka to my brew 

While dealing with others, our hearts we screw 

We give subtle hints, hoping the person will get a clue 

 

Even though I liked you, I never told 

I was always so shy, hadn’t done anything this bold 

your eyes lit up in the sun, they looked like gold

I wish feelings were just a commodity which could be bought or sold

 

I would never have been with you anyways 

Because love seems too temporary, some call it a phase 

You lose feelings for people you call yours and at your disposal always 

We love darkness, but want to watch the sunset 

And I didn’t want to lose feelings for you just yet 

 

You always seemed like a dream to me 

Didn’t know each other too well, but then why so close, were we? 

I wanted to wake up, so that the reality I could see 

I’m hoping you’re everything I’ve imagined you to be 

 

”You can only give your heart away once, after that, everything else will chase your first love.” – Tarryn Fisher