Moving on

It takes time to move on they said 

I promise it will be different next time, I read 

then why am I sad, why does it hurt in my head 

when everyone says he isn't worth the tears being shed 

how do I explain my love for him 

I waited by my phone even after the lights turned dim 

prioritised him while it made my winter grim 

And he texted back as per his whim 

stayed up late at night to answer those calls 

Your voice was my peace, who cares if it was brawls

now I'm left staring at these monotonous walls 

You’re getting your eyes red with her, while my hope falls

maybe I was convincing myself when I said you were the one 

defended you when my friends said block and be done 

I was selfish when I said i wanted you to be mine 

You were someone else’s, i was committing a crime 

Then just like that you faded away 

I’m waiting for you to come back even today 

I believed you when you said you won’t leave and you mean what you say 

But i guess I was just a side character in your play :(

I’ve waited for you all these years so what’s a few more 

But even if I got you this time, I don’t think I could love you anymore 

Not because I don’t have love left in store 

But because you wiped out the smile I once wore 

I will be scared to let you hold that knife over my head 

I couldn’t believe you because you always went back on what you said 

When you’d say that you’re scared to lose me along the way

You may have been a reason for my rainbows but also for my sky turning gray

I hate that it’s still hurting when it’s all in the past 

I’m going in for a shipwreck even though I can see the mast 

They say there’s plenty of fish in the sea, the sea is vast 

But how do I tell them that over my heart a spell you’ve cast

When all I got from you was a series of blast