Inner Voice

A small fight,

apologies exchanged, things back to normal

Do they?

Jokes about my random future plans

"I was kidding baby, I respect you"

Does he?

Statements made,

"I'll earn, you'll just relax...We need money to live, what's independence. I am here"

Was he?

A request to change the dress for a public event

"You know I want us to look perfect" its the only reason

Was it the only reason?

Cellphone checked, messages replied, some contacts blocked

"I just want you to be safe baby, We are one" faith restored,

Does it?

A SLAP!

"Sorry I was angry, You know I can't hurt you" Apology accepted,

Does it?

Those sleepless nights

With his snores next to me, things are fine

Are they?

I kiss that was made to show off in public,

I love you exchanged...love enhanced

Was it even there ever?

Deep down I had answers to all these questions,

Yet I was choosing his version, his version of me... me not so much me

Still...

Finally, a day before marriage,

Parents ready, guests ready, hall ready

"I do ...Do you?" he asked,

Do I?

"No, I do not. I can't, I don't want to" this time I accepted and gave voice to my answer.

The biggest decision was already taken.