Is It Not Love !?

They say you meet the love of your life at the most beautiful places,

So I guess, us first time meeting at the 1 BHK flat sharing, 

Was not romantic.

They say when you meet you spend a lot of time together,

So I guess, you allowing me to take the bedroom and you slept in hall,

Was not romantic at all.

They say people take time to get ready for their loves,

So I guess, seeing you in the same pyjamas for the entire lockdown,

And you seeing me with a big spectacle on my nose, eyes glued to a laptop, 

With a red pimple on the chin,

Is not love.

They say dwelling into each others' aroma is love,

So I guess, your sweaty pants to dry in my rooms' balcony 

Is not love.

They say love is about caring for each other,

So I guess, you spraying sanitizer on my face as a joke,

While cleaning my hands before dinner,

Is not love.

They say love is about doing things together,

So I guess, you letting me use your net pack for my company call,

While you have to wait for another 24 hrs to download your movie

Is not love.

They say love is about coffee dates,

So I guess, you cooking for me, as I'm busy washing clothes, 

Is not love.

They say love is about telling your families,

But you hiding when I video call my parents,

So they don't get worried about me staying with a guy,

Is not love.

They say love is about spending nights talking to each other,

So I guess, me keeping the door open of my room

Yet you simply looking at me while I sleep

Worried about my nightmares,

Is not love.

They say love is about making future plans,

But you ranting over your past breakups,

And me laughing at your stories, then your slight slap on my cheeks

In one of the drunken nights,

Is not love.

They say love is about making love, two bodies immersing into one

So I guess, Your firm grips around my butt, 

When I was about to fall while cleaning the fan,

Making sure that no part of my body is squeezed, knowing my touch issues,

Is surely not love.

They say love is about long I LOVE YOU,

So when you left for your homeland, Delhi, 

Putting your stuff in the car,

With silence on your lips,

As I paid the bill for your trip,

My eyes decided to hide the wetness,

As we both know that

It is not love.

Now you are gone, 

The flat is empty, 

Silences ready to eat me

"It is not love," I said to the therapist on the video call,

While checking in the next tab

The availability of trains to Delhi,

I have decided to come to you 

Just to know, 

IS IT NOT LOVE?