Evening Vigil In My Heart

Last night was a night of mourning in my heart,

I have never come to terms with my pain.

We could have grown old together.

I know that time heals old wounds, 

But I'm sorry about those times I ignored you. 

I thought you were mine for eternity.

How wrong I was back in the day and now!

I played ping pong with your heart,

Ruining happier times we had shared.

Please, forgive all my transgressions, my scarlet tide!

I am ready to make amends,

Every night, I touch the silver locket you gave me after graduation.

I close my dewy eyes and weep inside.

l know I also made you cry many times,

I'm sorry for the way I mistreated you,

Especially in the times, you needed me most.

I have smelled some wild roses, 

But there's nothing comparable to your jasmine and lavender fragrance.

I remember your warm laughter whenever we swam in the humid waters of the Nile.

Just yesterday, we were toddlers, 

Happy and innocent till we grew up. 

I should have protected you, sung you some hymns and placed your pillow in the hospital. 

Each day was painful, but you kept a smile on your face.

I guess I just got scared and wandered off.

There is no longer fire in the kitchen, 

Your spicy foods have long been forgotten. 

Since you took a long and sleepy journey.

I have tried my best to remain sane, but I feel the darkness in my soul.

Now I sit on your sofa and I daydream about your return. 

Life is unjust at times, and it is a long winding road.