Confession
Confession
It was that first time when I looked at you.
You started running through my mind.
Everything went along step by step until that one day you’d look at me, and that’s when I knew,
I’d always had this feeling when I’m around you.
Every time I see you I hold my breath
And my mind goes blank.
So I suppose I'll just always be on the other side of the room,
Loving you from a far.
I step forward to meet you.
Heart beating so loudly through my ears
Hands tangled with anxiety and eyes wide open in fear
A voice echoing in my head urging me to start speaking
So I gather all my strength and I force my lips into motion.
The first word comes out trembling, it hits the huge crowd and starts crumbling
No one can hear you!
I whisper to my self ...
I was so relieved to see you,
But I tightened my knuckles and darted my eyes and shifted away
In desperate hope that you might notice my discomfort.
I knew the thought that I feared you would sting far more,
Than any words, I could ever speak.
The truth was,
A conversation with you was all I wanted.
And the truth is,
sometimes I wish this was still the case.
Yet now as you turn towards me,
I feel my stomach drop and my toes curl.
As I lie to myself that I want to raise my eyes to meet your grin.
How do I say this?
Ever since that day we met
You already caught my attention
My eyes we're looking towards you
With every little thing you do.
Writing this piece not with my mind but my heart,
Not with my thoughts, but with my feelings
It's not easy to say
But I wanna say it anyway
I love you ....