Wish
Wish
I'm here lying on my bed,
Going numb all over.
The smell of coffee runs through
My veins,
In deep pain but I need to be strong.
All of a sudden I realized where I'm?
I could still feel the dose of medicines.
But I'm here,
I'm here,
Writing about what's happening
Pretty boring huh?
No chill, tensed a bit and
I call myself a poet
But I can't describe it fully
How you make me feel
I can't use high metaphors,
I can't write an abstract.
I doubt am I really a poet?
No, I'm just a boy
Scared of life finding new ways to cope
Searching for someone to love,
Struggling
Just struggling around
Not holding unto my dreams
How can I choose with my mind
What's right for the heart to choose.
Don't you see?
Don't worry I can't either
I can't see how great I am
I can't see how other people see me
I wish I could.
I want to believe this was a dream
Or
A nightmare.
But at last.
I'm here wishing that in another life
I could be with you
I crave your touch,
I crave you...
With coffee waking up my senses
Like a kid in summer waking up early
To go play with his friends.
I wish things were different,
So I wouldn't have to wish.