With Love Ankita

Ankita put her kids to sleep slowly she came out of room and closed the door, she sat on sofa and looked at the watch. Nikhil was not yet back home. She laid down on sofa and was immersed in her thoughts. She could see lots of changes in Nikhil's behavior. He left home early and returned very late. He made little conversation with her and kids. This made Ankita very upset, she wanted to talk about his behavior and resolve the differences between them. Nikhil and Ankita were married for 12 years.They had 2 kids Riya and Dhruv. Ankita's life was envy to many women, a loving husband and 2 smart kids. She lived a peaceful and happy life. Ankita was full of life, jovial and very talkative. Nikhil always admired her for her confidence and boldness. Any problem or issue Nikhil would turn to Ankita for her opinion, he respected her views and her ability to solve problems. She was a happy go lucky woman.

Life always gives lots of surprises, sometime it will bring joy and sometimes it takes away everything from you. Ankita never expected that life would be so harsh on her. Ankita felt very uneasy, headache and vomited, she had blurred vision and sometimes short term memory loss.This happened very frequently so she did not ignore it and went to doctor.

Ankita and Nikhil went to see doctor and to collect her reports, Doctor Prashanth was in dilemma on how to disclose the health condition of Ankita. Prashanth in a very sad voice told Nikhil "Your wife is suffering from Brain tumor and we may have to operate it, chances are very minimal. It so happens that while operating itself sometime patients die due to lack of oxygen supply to brain or stroke. We will try our best". Nikhil and Ankita were stunned and did not know how to react. Tears flowed from Ankita's eyes, Nikhil was very depressed. Dr.Prashanth prescribed few medicines and advised Ankita to take rest. They would decide on the operation date shortly. With heavy heart they both stepped out of doctor's cabin. Ankita was shattered, she felt as if she is falling down from tip of the mountain.

Nikhil became depressed and his behavior has changed completely towards Ankita.

The sound of opening door lock brings back Ankita to present, Nikhil walks-in and throws himself on sofa. Ankita brushes his hair softly and says "Go freshen up, I will serve dinner on table". Nikhil arrogantly says "No, I finished my dinner. why are you awake so late, can't you sleep and take rest?? Did you take your tablets??how many times I told you not to wait for me.

Ankita could not hold her anger anymore "Why are you killing me like this?? You have changed a lot these days?? What is my fault, if god punishes me with tumor in brain?? Better I die today itself then waiting for death. Nikhil rolls his eyes and says nothing wrong with me, you please go and sleep now.

Ankita screams on top of her voice "No, I need an answer, why are you ignoring me?? Why...why?? Are you in relationship with someone else?? Answer me Nikhil... I need to know why are you silent. Answer me now...

Nikhil holds her in his arms and starts weeping like a small boy, I am not a cheat Ankita, I am not looking at anyone, I am just training myself to live life without you. I am sorry, if it hurt you. I cannot imagine my life without you. You don't know how much I am depressed and afraid of loosing you. In fact everyday I am trying to find a way to cure your illness, pray to god to do some miracle or some magic so that you can always be with me forever. I don't know how to protect you from this bloody sickness. They both hugged each other and cried till they felt relieved.

Ankita made up her mind, she did not want her husband and kids to be dependent on her. She started training kids to be independent. Getting ready to school, preparing their breakfast and other chores. She broke the news to kids about her illness and consoled them to be brave. She prepared list of groceries to be purchased on monthly basis and stored it in her husband's phone and set reminder for 5th of every month. She arranged a trust worthy maid to look after kids and house hold work. Whenever she was free she recorded good stories and stored them in laptop for kids. She ensured everything would go smoothly in her absence. She was explaining everything to Nikhil. Nikhil with a sigh would say " No matter what Ankita, you will be missed every minute in our lives. you are an inspiration to us, you cannot be replaced". Ankita smiled and said "I don't want to accept defeat in life Nikhil, Death cannot scare me. I don't want to waste my precious days thinking about death. I want to fulfill my wishes before death take over me".

Ankita always wanted to go on vacation to Vatican and Rome, so her wish was fulfilled by Nikhil. She enjoyed every minute of her life with her husband and kids. She met her family and friends and spent time with them.She cherished each and every moment. Ankita was admitted in hospital to undergo operation. Kids and Nikhil were very anxious. Doctor Prashanth called them inside operation theater on a request from Ankita. Ankita hugged her kids and said "Be good and never trouble your dad". She held Nikhil's hand and said I am always with you. She gave him her mobile in which she had recorded messages for him. She kissed her kids and waved at them.

After 8 hours of operation Dr. Prashanth with a heavy heart comes out and informs them Ankita is no more. She had a stroke while operating and passed away. Nikhil and kids were inconsolable. They had lost the precious person in their life.

After few days when Nikhil opened the voice message from Ankita's phone, he felt as if Ankita was next to him "Dear Nikhil, life is short so there is no point in worrying. Enjoy your life to the fullest. I am always with you, I had stored many messages in this mobile so that you won't miss me. Take care of kids and yourself, I don't want you to feel my absence. I want all of you to be happy and lead a normal life. I will always be around you. looking at your happiness and success. I am thankful to all of you for the wonderful memories that I cherished.

With love ....Ankita!!!!