Thanks For Breaking My Heart

Dear Raihan, 

You know I loved you so much. I was so hurt when I got to know that I was an option to you despite loving you with all my heart. My initial days of heartbreak were really tough. I used to remain depressed and spent sleepless nights asking God for the reason for my heartbreak. 

But now, after one and a half years of heartbreak, I have entirely recreated and rediscovered myself. Now, I am grateful to you for breaking my heart. You know what, that heartbreak was a blessing in disguise for me. If you had not broken my heart I would not have re-discovered myself in new ways. I would not have found out so many new hobbies- cooking, photography, dancing, styling, writing , reading books. Had I not got my heart broken, I would have stayed in my comfortable shell thinking all day about you and imagining a future with you. The time that I invest in myself and my self-growth now, I would have given that time to you, had you been a part of my life. I would have never left my comfort zone and met new people and made new friends had you not left me. I would not have realized that being self-dependent and self-reliant is the only key to happiness. I would have not realized that the world is so cruel, I would have thought the world to be the same fairyland as I had imagined it in my innocent imaginary world. I would not have realized that love is not just what we feel for a person, but how we feel when we look at sunsets, listen to music, take a walk in nature and enjoy our own company happily. Had you not broken my heart, I would never have found and re-discovered myself and realized love in so many different forms.

Thanks for showing me the reality, the real ruthless world. Thanks for making me realize that I never need anyone by my side, but myself. Thanks for letting me understand that life goes on without whatever or whoever. Thanks for showing me what love is not. Thanks for breaking my heart to the point where I started loving myself so much that I stopped bothering about unnecessary people. And finally, thanks for being a blessing in disguise in my life. 

- Tista.