Realisation

    Geeta is the essence of the journey of the soul in the universe and it is a direction provided to the wandering mind in order to accomplish the purpose of soul. Geeta is an open and wide cage from the core of the earth to the infinite space beyond the limit of blue sky!

   Before some years when I completed my 10th standard, I had a wish to read the greatest Hindu literature of all time 'THE BHAGVADGEETA'. I was quite unsure that whether I could understand the depth of Geeta or not; but just because I had an intense urge to dive into the vast and deep sacred and holy ocean of knowledge of the Geeta for quite long period of time, I left behind all the doubts and put the footstep with full of excitement on the mesmerizing path of the devine Geeta.

    The affection for Geeta was already rooted within me when I was in 5th standard. That time the team of ISKCON had conducted the interschool competition of talent hunt on the Bhagvadgeeta for the purpose of spreading the knowledge of Geeta among the students. That was the first time when Geeta entered in my life. I had secured 1st rank in that competition but that was not the end of it. That competition filled my heart with full of curiosity and love for Geeta. In my vacations after 10th standard when I was reading Geeta , the very first thing I learned about Geeta was that ' your mind must be the blank page when you are imprinting the learnings of Geeta on it. GEETA is the simple life lesson by Lord Krishna but sometimes or most of the times human mind views simpler things as the complicated ones because of the certain worthy or unworthy prejudices of the mind.

    I was getting it whatever I am reading quite better at thought level. I had read only some initial portion of Geeta which holds the very crucial and the core lesson of Geeta that ' perform your karma heartfully and leave the result on the wish of Krishna.' Firstly it sounds quite illogical if we read the Geeta through the glasses of mathematical logic as the equation doesn't fit in the so called success formula that we have made equating definite amount of result for definite amount of karma.(Excluding the fact here that some of us want everything without taking efforts or with evil efforts.) With such prejudice deeply rooted in mind one would get more confused with this statement which is the ultimate answer of all kind of the the expectations we have. I had the same confusion about being this statement so fair with that success formula in my mind. Hence before reading the explanation I took a pause and recited in mind the condition given for understanding the Geeta on the initial page that 'read Geeta without prejudices'. So finally making my mind empty of all the preconceptions I embarked to read and understand that life holding explanation. Krishna explained Arjuna so beautifully and simply that how his work was worship for him even though he was going to kill his family, friends and Guru(teacher). The only justice with the battlefield is denying the injustice and fight against the enemy no matter whoever he is. The sacred karma of fighting against injustice can never bring the results of sin. Krishna encouraged Arjuna to go for his karma and leaving all the worries of the impact of battle on Krishna. Krishna has been the very friendly Guru to his devotee Arjuna to answer all his queries and thus the conversation between them is the great lesson to the mankind.

    

Past 2/3 years(after 10th standard) has been a bit challenging for me and even today I am struggling with it. Mentally and emotionally I was dealing with tough situation within myself and it hasn't end even today. But the thing is that now I am dealing with it so much better than earlier having faith deep within that no matter how much hard it seems , it's just the matter of time, patience and courage. After all the juggling thoughts and emotions in my mind and all the events I faced, witnessed and experiences, observations I gained, finally I came to the conclusion that I cannot control the result but I can put the best of myself in my Karma. I can work hard but I can't have control over the gain out of it. When I love and value people in my life, unfortunately but truthfully I can't expect the same in return. How can someone commands other person's thoughts and emotions? Most important thing I learnt and realised is that I can have strong emotional bonds with people and still I can be detached with them being emotionally so independent that I won't crave for anyone's shoulder to put my head on and cry. Instead it's better to sit in the corner , fold the legs, put the head between knees, cover your hands over it and let your tears flow in your own lap. Look at the moon , stars ...feel the essence of night, the blowing air.. let the wide sky to fall in the depth of your eyes...and close your eyes to let your soul float within the space inside yourself. It connects you to the Universe, to your origin and shakes your soul to wake up and embark on its divine purpose. The real self love makes you even more compassionate to the others since you have realised that we all are same. I will want someone to be there for me but I should make sure that I won't need it badly being self sufficient. I learnt that every Karma has its results but we don't recognise them just because those results didn't match with our imagination. This is the very crucial thing I noticed. 

   It felt like a magical rhythm touched my core when I had a realisation that the girl who has read a part of Bhagwadgeeta some years ago has finally experienced all that theoretical knowledge in practical life by living through experiences. That day I understood the theory but today I have accepted it. When Understanding is followed by acceptance, there's the unconditional love and that's how I am in love with Bhagwadgeeta. Before a period of time, I saw the light in the darkness and today that lights has been showered on me and that's so thrilling to realise such transformations within. Such moments holds the whole life. 

   I had read in Geeta about the soul being the part of supreme and the body being just a cover of soul as of clothes covering the body and so much more deep statements and explanations that had got the question mark in my mind. These years of fighting with myself somewhere connected me to the existence of the supreme power. I believe in God already but in this period I experienced him being by my side no matter how much worse the life was going which strengthened my belief even more and I feel the connection with this Universe when I close my eyes and focus. Lord Krishna protected me when I was surrounded by negativity and I felt that protective covering. When I connected these dots of happenings in my life I was just astonished! Yeah.. God is the very skilled artist indeed. He creates the picture of our life in the form of dots of events and leave it to ourselves to join those dots with the ink experiences and learnings. 

  Before two years I didn't know that whatever I am reading is going to lead my life to the way of realisation of this knowledge. I am grateful to that down and dull time period of my life that really upraised me..!