Pain That Keeps Me Alive

Are you sad? What is bothering you? If you continue to be the same you will fall sick and you may also get depressed! Let out your feelings! Tell me what’s wrong? If you can share, I would listen…

I am sleepless as I feel I would lose him again, though I sleep it’s hard to sleep as I suddenly wake up with nightmares, I am weak to cry, I write unopened letters, I have fallen in love with pain, physical pain no more hurts me, the pain keeps him alive. Loneliness has become my best friend. I have improved a lot by consuming words and feelings as my medication. I scribble on the sheet. Tears keep me calm…

I scribble the magical words I love you as I failed to express it. but all I know is that you are my universe where I live in till now When he asked me, what would you do when I am gone – I said I will still fall in love with every day, every moment and every second but he was gone too soon after asking me that question.

All I know is that I have improved a lot from scratching wrist to scratching on papers, he is alive in my pain, I am not depressed – though I am dying inside I am alive still because of him who lives in my pain