My love goodbye

Scar in my heart

The memories come flooding in. All so suddenly though the years have flown by so fast. The pain that cuts through my heart leaves my heart bleeding and flooded with a weight too heavy to bear.

It was was that cold rainy night tucked away from the world and its busy city lights, you said your goodbyes and headed out into the night cold lonely night.

Too busy and bogged down with work I had no thought to check on you out there. The hours flew by and the morning sun was burning brightly penetrating eyes stared at me that made me jump out of my skin.

It dawned on me you had left just some hours ago. The day ended without a trail of you. A search party searched areas along the track you took. But the search after two months was called off.

I sank into my world of lamentations and buried my happiness. Life threw me into my cage of negativity. I died in my mind to my surroundings and gave up on life. There was no meaning in living for you had gone out of my sight and reach.

Each night I'd search the net hoping to find you online but all is just an illusion of no reality. For you lied to me that night hiding from me your condition that was silently killing you. A tumor you had of which I hadn't an idea of.

The tears no other but you can wipe. Is now a river of ocean of which am slowly drowning into. I see you every night in my dreams. I hear your voice echoes of your teasing jokes in the air. 

Like the autumn leaves that fall no weight no life in it. Reminds me of your struggles that you hid from us. Many questions lie unanswered and many dreams unfinished of which many more words are but just words without action

If to open my heart to see its content. A broken heart you'd find bleeding and each piece calling out your name. I hate to sleep tonight for I need to say goodbye and good night.

My dear angel please take this letter sealed with my love to her. Tell her I love her Tell her I miss her so much now. The days will never shine with your smile ever again. The nights cold and empty. My arms cold and craving for your warmth that will never be mine. My heart the scar will remain till my last breath.

For now I have no choice but I will say these lines. Goodbye my love. Goodbye my hero. Till we meet again in heaven.