My First Love Letter To Her

Hello!

 Arhun "what's wrong with you". Is everything alright?

damn! Its four o'clock morning.

With nervously losing his breaths Arhun answered.

Listen ! Rahul come home immediately. I have to tell you something .

Its urgent ! please !

Ok, fine, Arhun , I am on my way.

 

Door bell rang out , Arhun opened the door and Rahul was terribly looking at him.

Arhun, you scared the hell out of me.

Come inside first ! , and lower down your voice , mom is still sleeping.

obviously ,not everyone is a owl like you. Arhun  irritatingly said , let us get in the room .

Ok !, Rahul said .

Now will you let me know ,what was the urgency ?.

 Arhun took a deep breath and said ... Rahul "I have seen her last night".

Abruptly  Rahul said “who” ?

Arhun whimpered out , vani....., believe me it was her.

Rahul was baffled out, he had his knuckles on on his temples.

Rahul blurted out , Are you drank ?

Arhun absurdly said  No..., I am not , I saw her last night .Why don't you believe me ?.

Rahul said sarcastically, yes of course , in your dreams.

Arhun  antagonize and his face turned red.

Rahul knew that he might had just triggered him , he breath out slowly ,and said calm down.....

With husky voice he said, Arhun, she is gone, she won't come back.

His words just break out Arhun, he was scandalized.

But he repelled it,and said again " I saw her " but this time more steadily.

Arhun you have to get this over. It had been four bloody years now.

Rahul I just can't help it out, she will have her imprints in my memory till the time I die.

Her smile , her eyes ,my heart still beats for her. I want her back .

Arhun you are like stagnant water , nothing can change you.

Stop it ! Arhun , you have to except the fate. Grown up my friend , he wanted to say more .

But he chocked. He stood up  and slammed the door while leaving .

Arhun scuffed his face over the envelope, and crushed his hand on the bed forcefully.

He started screaming out ,” why is no one believing me” ?.

He open up the envelope .It was pale ,shabby and old . He took out a card and placed it

on the bed ,and took out a photograph .He was so absorbed and busy that he hardly noticed

that someone was coming upstairs . He heard a cacophony .He leaped out .

His mother was standing behind him.

He saw a old rusted metallic box in her hand ,which was making a creek sound.

Oh! Uh! , mom.., what are you doing here? .

 she blurted out ,"Not again my dear". I'm always worried about you .Just look at yourself ,your

eyes are swollen ,you look lethargic and frustrated all the time .

You look disgusting now , stop torturing yourself .You have a career looking forward for you.

Its over Arhun , “she is gone” .Please for god sake ,put that letter and photograph in the box.

Arhun scrutinized his mom , and said “what are you saying” ......,I am not going to do that you better know it .

She repeated  more steadily , put that thing in box right now.

With sporadic breaths he edged out, No!....., I'm not going to do that .

she eased herself and said honey!, you are just living in past ,you have to move on .

Mom ! , you have to believe me, I saw her last..

 Oh ! god cut that crap out , Arhun. You are  hallucinating the things.

Listen!, my child I can't take away what happened to you ,but you can start something better.

Just focus on your career , hang out with your friends ,talk to us ,even we need our son back.

Dad and I want to see you happy .

He could make out from her face , that how much he had troubled her by his stubborn behaviour.

He embolden himself and said ,ok mom “I will”. 

He simmered into his mother's eyes and pleaded  to have a last look on them.

She hesitated first but finally on seeing his begging eyes ,she agreed ,but stiffing her facial

muscles she said " promise me this is last time ". Just say a goodbye to her, forever.

He grabbed her hand and said ,I swear mom ,this is the last time .....

She softly kissed on his forehead and left the room.....

He growled out ....,and grabbed the photograph ,and pressed it against his left side of chest ,

And folded his hands on it .He cried out "why you abandoned me ?".

He took a last gaze at her well candid photograph , which he clicked at their final semester exams,

He never  knew that ,It would be last time to see her.

" Her hair strands were falling on her face , few of them just cushioned on her soft strawberry lips.

Her blue eyes had deep ocean of love .Her simple elegant smile completing the perfect picture...."

 

He put the photograph beside him , on the bed, and took out a letter in his hands .

His eyes flooded out , he was about to cry ,but he controlled his emotions .

 

He opened up the letter , a simple hand written, no fragrance ,no glitters, nothing fancy ,

But it was very special to him, he unfolded one of the corners of the letter ,and rubbed his fingers over the faded blood stains ,his heart beats absurd out.....

" Vani you are like your name , like a melody which everyone wants to embrace.

   Vani we have been friends from eighth standard. But something has changed me ,my perspective about 

you . I feel you much more than a friend ,I know it is hard to believe that a boy like me, ever be serious

  for a girl .I know you think I am flirter ,but the way I feel for you ,is just that ,I can't express in

  words . It makes me smile when you smile ,as if you are the reason ,I smile .I don't

  know ,whether you feel the same way ,as I do .But I just wanted you to know my feelings about you ,I feel

 my day incomplete without you , your teasing me ,messing up my hair - hey ! I hate that ,

but I love the smile on your face when you do that..

 I tried so much to speak to you about this .But every time I come up to you, I just choke ,I start shivering like I have passed piercing wind .I know am a jerk ,but this jerk seriously wants to be love with a girl, with whom he has shared all his secrets .Whenever I call out your name, sky appears pink to me, and violins start playing in my mind.

Oh! No ,I think ,I have just exaggerated the things . You know how I am. But one thing I can

assure  you ,I feel a connection with you .Believe me you are the special one ,I was waiting for .

I can talk to you whole day ,without worrying about anything .I am writing this letter ,

because I don't how you will react..I freeze out every time ,I confront you.

You know what I love about you the most ,your eyes ,they are so deep that anyone could fall in them,

your smile ,your yellow teeth, your running nose ...

Ok ,ok ,I'm sorry, just kidding ,your teeth are white and shiny and as gorgeous as you.

You are perfect and you make me feel perfect ,you have changed me ,I have started loving myself.

I think it is the time to confess .., I want to be with you every day ,every second of my life.

Will you give a chance to say those magical words to you. Whatever your answer will be.

I 'm with you , how hard it gets ............  "

 

Is she really gone ? he said with melancholy.....

" My first love letter to her"..........