Insomnia

When half of my world is fast asleep, but I'm awake because I'm afraid of having a nightmare. Even when I make up my mind and try sleeping I end up waking up all sweaty and breathy , yes I just saw my worst fears in my dreams. Though I try soothing myself, though I say to myself that it's okay, I'm fine, I no deep down that I'm going to carry this phobea till my last breath. I no it's just dark and I no everything is just in my head but I'm so flattered by my own imagination that even that imagination looks so real. 

I want to talk to somebody about my problem of sleeping but every single time I open d contact list I end up being flattered by the thought that ,i don't have anybody that I can share this with. Even those cold pills have no effect on me, they just make me tired and sleepy but they don't get rid of my nightmares. Even the bright light in my room fades away with the darkens in my imagination. What should I do now, see friends season again or should I start with a new Korean series...... None of these makes me strong enough to face my fears and my hyper ventilation never gets solved. Maybe I'll just cry off, maybe then I'll be forced to close my eyes and eventually I might end up sleeping....