New Year's Spark Called Love

Love... Always the word that gets our attention, the one word whose meaning is still so deeply hidden, and just like everyone else I was waiting to get swooped away in a journey called love. 

I don't know if It's a new year's spark or just the failure's soberness I think I fell in love with a guy. It's not just any guy, I fell in love with my best friend. 

Falling in love with a total stranger and falling for your own best friend is so much different, you can skip all the knowing each other, just casual relation stuff, and just speak your heart out to your best bud but with a name tag as a boy friend.

I remember the time he messaged and called me with panic when I failed my professional exams, I know he wasn't even in India but still, he knew I needed him by my side no matter what. He told me it's fine to cry my eyes out if I want to when my friend died. He was there every time I fell, he was there to embrace me with warmness, I just didn't see it all until today when I heard him leaving for London for his higher studies. 

All this time I was searching for love elsewhere when I had him right beside me. I finally learned the value of him when I'm about to lose him. I haven't even poured my heart out to him but he is already planning his stay in London. I don't even know if he feels the same way about me. I know he has done so many earnest things for me but is it evident to know if he is in love with me or not.

My head was filled with all these unanswerable thoughts and I knew only he had answers for it. Since I'm not that of old school and I genuinely agree that I'm a wimp, instead of directly meeting him, I texted him and poured my heart out to him. I told him how secured I felt when I was with him, how he had never made me feel uncomfortable with his texts, how supportive he was with my decisions, how he never forgot to compliment me on my every new DP, and how I'm ready to fly 5000 miles if I have to then lose him because it's more heartbreaking compared to my flight fare to London...

And to my heartfelt long message which felt more like an article, he replied with just 3 words "call me now". I don't know if he didn't have a phone pack or was just in shock, so I called him, instead of a "Hi" he said " I Love you" just the 3 words I was eagerly waiting for. 

I don't know what the future holds for us but I shouldn't care right, it's this exact moment that matters and I'm glad that I took my shot and told him how I genuinely felt about him.

So at least for this upcoming new year, stop making endless resolutions and start living your every moment and let the future surprise you......