Horrific Nights

It was the same routine every single night. Or at least for the last 78 nights. Drink warm milk with a teaspoon of sugar. Brush my teeth. Make sure the curtains are closed all the way to the very end (no gaps, thank you!). Moisturise. My pillow fluffed just the right amount. Set a redundant alarm for 6 am. Close my eyes. Go to sleep.

All for what? I open my eyes to see it is 3:13 am, every single night!

Every night at that moment, all I hear is silence. The silence is so loud, I barely hear my pounding heart. An eerie feeling creeps over me as I see through the (now open) curtains, the ice glazes over the windows from the sudden cold. A smell wafts through. One that is so familiar. I know what it is, I have definitely smelt it before, yet I cannot name it. All these days, I have never been able to remember it. I have tried day after day, night after night, still zilch. What now....?"

This was the routine I was following which I was wondering I would even be a part of it. But someone I did manage to make it daily life and been adjusted with it without any hesitation. So I don't know it's because of my past life which I have through or because of the horrifying nightmares I have every night. Maybe some people would get plenty amount of sleep anyhow at any time. But for me, it's the toughest job to sleep at night.

Never known the perfect reason for it but it feels like I have been through the worst it would be in other life or what, what I feel is like I have been through something dreadful in my past life which I am scared of and because of that it doesn't let me sleep till this night.