Her Crush

She was living in dreams

Of her Crush 

By peeking him from anywhere

From the corner

Always mesmerized in thoughts

Of fascinated by him

Wanted to tell him about her feelings

But something scares her

Once she came to know about his beloved

Which broke her heart

She decided to leave about his thoughts

By just focusing on herself

Made her the most staunch person 

Where she find peace within

She was the most jolly person always stuck in the dreams of her dream boy. Though he was in real by her side. But she was that one girl who just hesitate to tell her feelings. She just does things like normal people do when they like someone by peeking at them from somewhere. By just randomly following them. By telling friends about him. But somewhere she just loves him within that feeling which was only can be felt by her and which she enjoys to fell it.

As the boy was the popular guy obviously the girls around her may have crush on him which made her somehow jealous and makes her sad too by feeling that she may lose him. Which she never want, on the other hand she is not able to tell her feelings to him too that makes her more mesirable and confused about what she is doing?

There were problems which she was dealing with in her life which were just undeniable and disturbing. Though she finds her happy place in that guy by just looking at him. By watching his smile and talking makes her feel so happy. Which makes all her problems flew away in the air and gives her the serenity. Though being the bright student in class this was something that was a side was only known by her 2 beast friends.

They both always support her for what she feels about that guy and motivate her to tell him about. 

Suddenly, one day that guy comes with her girlfriend and introduced her to the class. And which made her feel so heartbroken that actually she just fell apart. She wanted to tell him about how she felt but she can't as she also wanted to see him happy. And thus finally the day came where she have completed her graduation. And the day of falling apart. Where she just smiled and waved towards him as they were classmates. And just left the room and never thought about that guy again.

Somewhere within herself she decided not to feel anything for anyone which may hinder her. And just started focusing on herself by just focusing on her career. And got a good job and eventually achieved so much that she was also feeling contended with. Sometimes that thoughts of that guy may just flashed on her thoughts but that was not having that impact which was back that time. She just felt like something have been changed in her which she was loving in her.

Maybe something which changed her that is the realization about loving herself and not expecting the one who is not made for her. And that made her life and viewpoint changed and better and she was loving her life, what she was doing and what she had achieved. The misery of her life had just solved by achieving in her life well and not running for the one who is not known and unaware of what she feels. That gave her the courage to tell her heart out when she felt hard. All these episodes just made her more aware of what she can do and which steps she should take when the time comes. Though all these happenings were also something that made her life focused on herself which somewhere within she got the tranquility.