An Epitome Story
An Epitome Story
Saniya being a girl and a middle child always try to become a perfect paradigm for people around. Her intentions are always good but unfortunately unable to convey and to show people. And also because of her different vision and perspective for a world that makes her unique, intelligent, childish, foolish or idealist at the same time. Also having a brother with different views makes her a much different child of her family. The elder brother, who is a silent kid with lots of dedication and aspirations to achieve his best job and obviously favorite for being the first child. Then comes younger brother, he is the younger one so obviously most loved and idolized greatly by everyone around but also the closest one to Saniya.
She is the girl who always aspires to achieve big dreams and wants to do everything in her life, it can be sports, academics, projects, dance competitions, writing, and many more. She just wants to be adept in everything, not for compulsion but she loves and enjoys trying and exploring every field. Everything was perfect right from her beginning of life. Life was way smooth and easy-going no one to interrupt her. Like every kid, she also had a perfect childhood, who loves to play and to watch movies, cartoons, and also an average student. She was a careless free soul. She must have never realized at that stage that her life is going to become a misery. Everything was good and calm until her teenage life.
As soon as, she entered the high school life, something was way too different she realized of becoming in the phase of adolescence. Once in school, she encountered an incident that was probably life-changing. For almost failing an exam, she was scolded by teachers and parents too. And even she was prohibited from playing her favorite sport which was her utmost happiness giving one and other activities too. And became a terrible kid for parents for not getting good scores. She never thought that just a simple paper of marks is going to change her life. And she was always enduring of being judged or being measured by the marks she got. After that, she started comparing herself to others and thought that she must be incompetent or underachiever. Started depriving herself of living an imaginary and all fictional world of her. Simultaneously, she was facing the family pressures to become a good grade girl rather than being a sports girl.
And started coming across the real-life situations, made herself detached from her fairy world. By meeting new people and friends, made her perspective more different by watching that she is not the only one who is struggling with this but many more people around her are in the same sitch who just have to give up on their favorite things to achieve something. And made her realized that without acing in the academics field no one is going to admire her, it could be anyone from around. She also wants to become a perfect child for her parents whom they might love more. That made her clear, she must have to take efforts to be in a tough world by conquering her problems rather than being in an imaginary world of her which can only make her sad.
She made her all attempts every day to become an ace by competing with herself, by also being best in academics, then in other activities of life, and always have that utmost desire and spark to achieve her aim by competing. And she was happy too by achieving this real-world competition and that also have made an influence on her that, things were much good after that people around her was watching her with different field of vision and her parents were also happy. And also achieved the ikigai which she wants to.
But deep down, she always has haunting melancholia for her future too, what if she will not be an ace or would fail to achieve her goal, will that change all the situations to past or the situations she never wants to encounter again. Trying to be a perfect child was a mess, which she created or she joined, she must have to race for that life competition. And always being in her misery what if the imaginary world of her was much better than this one. She also was in that competition, where she enjoys or not she must have to participate. The anxiety of her always makes her life more listless and dead. And she never understood that, was she satisfied or fulfilled with her present situation or real-world life or wants that imaginary world where she can be herself without being judged and be a free soul who wants everything and dream to achieve everything without any compulsion and constraint.
She always has the perplexity of what has made her life so dead, Why everyone in the world has to be in a race for being loved, respected, being treated equally, to get admiration and to be considerate that even, you exist. You must have to change oneself perspective and you can’t be the original selves and not get all the things which they also deserve. For being an ideal kid, does she always have to race for the competition which can be the last thing she wants? Sometimes, even a small failure make her insecure, uncomfortable and makes her afraid to be deprived again of being loved and respect and everything, she got.
The bright side of Saniya was that She was an inspirational and self-motivated person, which have actually made her an ace by conquering every situation of her life which she desired to, by defeating herself, problems, and other hurdles. But this love for her imaginary world always makes her feel questioning her existence for and miserable to dwell in the real world. Then also she manages to face all the actual life issues and complications by her free soul and unique standpoint to see life.
And after all, she proved that sayings of Maya Angelou, “ You will face many defeats in life, but never let yourself be defeated.”