Crystal Floyd

Romance Inspirational Others

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Crystal Floyd

Romance Inspirational Others

Heartbreak

Heartbreak

5 mins
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What Happens When You Break The Heart Of An Independent Woman With Anxiety


She is different from other women. The ones who need someone in their life. She does it all on her own, especially looking after herself. This woman has spent the majority of her days without a partner. She has a great friends who help her in many ways, but it is not the same as having a constant companion who is in this thing called life, every step of the way.


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This woman was at a crossroads in her life whenever he came along. She had been through an emotionally -abusive relationship previously and it had taken a long time for her to feel quite like herself again. But having gone through such a rough winter where her mind was challenged to be strong, she was also making many changes in her life. She was working on herself, working to become the person that she had always wanted to be... But most of all, this woman was striving to be happy.


Whenever she met him, she was not sure what exactly it was that she really wanted. It is easier to be alone and her heart has been through enough to last an entire lifetime. He was not the type of person that she thought that she wanted, but the chemistry between the two of them was un-deniable, for sure ! He made this woman feel beautiful every single day, not only by telling her that she was beautiful (even when she first woke up in the morning and her hair was a disaster and she had no make-up on) But he also did a great job of showing her. He made her trust him by truly being there for her and by also talking about plans for the future. He introduced her to his family and she thought, "This has to be something that would last ! "


This woman was letting her guard down ; But maybe this was it, maybe he was the one who would actually stay whenever he said that he would. She began to need him in her life, he was not only her lover, but he was also her best-friend. She talked to him about everything and after some time, she eventually allowed him into her soul.


It is not easy for somebody with anxiety to date. We overthink literally everything - Going over literally everything that happens and how it may or may not be interpreted. She is afraid to let him see just how she can be. She tries so hard to present herself as a woman who has it all together. When this woman falls, she falls hard. She will do anything to make him happy, which in turn, makes her happy. She was so happy with him most days - The dollar store trips taken together and especially in all of those quiet moments just laying in his arms.


Then one day, it was just all over and it did not make any sense at all. There was no big fight, he had just changed over the course of a couple of weeks. She had hoped that it was just a "funk" and that they would get through whatever that it was... Together. How could somebody who had been so invested in her, just be done ? Had it all been an act ? Why does this keep happening ? This woman is somebody who gives so much of herself to other people every single day. She is a good woman, yet all that she has ever known is... Heartbreak .


See the thing is that when the independent woman with anxiety gets her heart broken, it is harder for her to recover. She was used to being alone, until she had started depending on him for certain things. Once it was all taken away so abruptly, she did not know what to do, because some kind of a void was left in his place. She felt more lonely than she had ever before. She could not believe that she has to start all over AGAIN !


Sometimes breakups are far worse than death in some ways. Breakups leave you with countless questions, going over all of the different scenarios of how it could have been different. You have to go on living each day, knowing that the person that you love is not dead, but that they just do not want you in their life anymore.


The anxiety part is what makes the breakup such a living hell. She just could not stop herself from thinking about him constantly. Even months later, she is still heartbroken and catches herself obsessing over everything and being constantly inside of her head, the thoughts just do not ever stop. She posts things on social-media hoping that he will somehow see it and regret all of the hurt that he has caused her. She has so many reminders of him and she is sure he has no reminders of her. She wandered how he is able to move on so easily with his life,while she is left devastated. " How is that fair ? " , she thought.


But the independent part of her makes her strong, she reminds herself that she deserves the very best from a partner and that he was just not able to give her that. She deserves somebody who will not stop calling her beautiful or putting in an effort to make her smile, somebody who is willing to walk this path of life with her, encouraging each other to be the best that they can be and not somebody who runs from what is inside of him just because he does not want to face it, not somebody who cannot be alone, so he jumps into relationships one right after another, dis - regarding how this could/would possibly break her heart even more. She deserves the person that he was in the very beginning, if that was even the true him.


This breakup brought about many positive changes in the end. She is putting her confidence and self-worth back together, so that she can be the best version of herself for the next person, while putting herself first and doing what makes her happy. She is in many ways, the happiest that she has been in such long time. This woman is a stronger, better version of herself today. When the right person comes along, she will be ready because she has done the self-work.


Can you say the same?



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