Not Feeling Good Today

Heyy...I am not feeling good today....can you talk?

Its okay if you dont wanna speak but lets just go on a silent walk?

I dont know why I am sad...may be everything piled up is coming out!

I have noticed changes in you and whether you have time for me I doubt

May be my words and my feelings dont matter to you anymore

Though you said you wont ever change 'in a bad way'-which you really swore

Can you tell me whats wrong? I am all ears right now

Whenever I say something that you've done wrong, the only thing you say now is "WOW"

Why do you make me think that its all my mistake and not yours, not even a lil bit

I am just asking may be we can clear things out, theres still time but you always quit

Dont you feel odd? Are you really fine with this? Nothing's hitting you?

How were we before and how we are now doesnt alarm you?

At times I think my sleep is peaceful where I am alive but the day when I am awake is a nightmare

You just say things now but you dont mean them like you did before...honestly do you even care?

There are a lot of things happening right now so atleast hold my hand

I am trying to manage my life but what do I do when nothings going as planned

I dont want your help.. only I need your presence near me

Its more of just you and me instead of old times when we were 'we'

I am stuck I dont know what to do now..lifes bad

Because of so many messages and calls to you..you must be thinkin I've gone mad

I am not talking to anyone since sometime not even family and friends

Negative thoughts have started wondering my mind and I know how it ends

I am trying to lift myself up ALONE but I just want some1 to listen to me

Everybody's busy I understand...being alone is fine but I dont want be lonely

Sleepless nights are haunting me and I dont want to get up in day

I don't know what's happening to me if you know please say

My friends think I dont want them and family thinks I have changed

I cant bear no more heartbreaks now so I dont want us to be estranged

If not anything else you can fight with me, this way may be at least you'll talk to me, I'll feel relieved and will be able to survive the day

I am sorry I cried my heart out to you, it's not a big deal I am just not feeling good today!!