My Lobotomy

Oh soul you are so hard to find

Completely apathetic; self left behind

So uncomfortably numb and dead inside

So restlessly discontented on the outside

I pace in silence unknowingly so

With direction, or motivation to go

No feelings at all to describe

My medicated override

Lying staring at the stars

All emptiness and out so far

Thoughts all gone out of existence

Away far to the farthest distance

A non-emotion emotion and nothing felt

Am I human or something else?

I yearn to simply feel again

Even just the feeling of pain

All remains is my heart beating like a drum

Life, lived, medicated until I'm numb