Smoking Beauty

I puffed my wonderful life away

hugging on to a false dream always 

that the slender smoking beauty

was the only source of happiness.

I pray for the pain to end now

Kill me!! I screamed out loud

And sought for help from above

to put an end to the suffering bestowed.

I leave nothing but a pile of debt

for my beautiful wife and kids

How selfish was I to break the trust 

Now I regret for the wasted years.

When I am lying down still

my consciousness plays hide and seek

I stare at the picture on my window sill

with hopes of getting back to feet so bleak.