Finding Myself

 Every time I look into the mirror, my soul stares at me as if I am a zero. My reflection always makes me look back on all my failures. When I feel shy to stand in front of a mirror .. I ask myself " If I am not daring enough even to stand in front of my own conscience, Can I be able to stand in front of a huge crowd to raise my voice? If I feel inferior in front of myself, Can I make myself stand superior in front of my people? When my own soul itself hates me, who is going to love me? When do I feel like a zero, who can make me a hero? What am I going to do with my failures? Are they going to make me stand high or they gonna throw me into the deepest grounds? Am I going to learn from them or am I taking them as my own burials?"

My mind peeped through all these questions and stood like a loser failing to find the answers. It was then I penned down all my feelings in my diary hoping that at least I could stay motivated when I look into it again. But I never knew that this is going to change my life. My mirror and my diary became friends. They both started to point out me as a failure. I couldn't even put my head up. My mind reluctantly recollects all my tensing situations. Every time I take a mike and see the huge crowd, my heart starts beating like never before, my hands start to sweat, my legs shiver, my voice trembles, my whole body goes out of my control, a very strange thoughts ruin my mind. Again I stand like a failure. 

I started practicing in front of a mirror. I raised my voice before me. I put forth all my feelings in a diary. I made my feelings come out of my heart. I never let myself down. I was very curious and enthusiastic to let myself speak in front of this world. 

I took the mike. This time my heart was pleasant, my hands started doing actions, my legs stood very confident, my eyes started making contact with the audience, my voice raised. The most powerful words that came out of my mouth, "Never let yourself down. Make your failures be the pathway for your success. No one needs to praise you except your own conscience. You don't need to be lucky to succeed in your life, you just have to work hard. When you can stand proud in front of a mirror, you can stand anywhere in this world. When you stop following others just like the animals do, you can discover your own way. So my dear friends, discover THE NEW YOU WITHIN YOU. "

 This time every face I see is full of cheers, the hall is filled with claps. I now stood in front of myself. Now my soul is proud of me. I am proud of myself.