The Day The State Split Asunde
The Day The State Split Asunde
The same night Sanjana reached her home bemused. and opened the letter given by Karthik and started reading out loud.
First of all I have to tell you sorry. Because I lied to you by saying that I am from Telangana but indeed I am from Andhra. The reason I lied to you is because I thought you will start hating me if you get to know that I am from Andhra. For many days I have been hiding a lot of feelings deep in the vault of my heart and currently they have stretched out to a certain point that my little heart is no longer in a position to bear it. Every day I am locking horns with myself to prevent them from coming out of my heart's closet and today I have lost the battle. I was defeated and left with no other option except to liberate them. I have no clue whether I am doing the right thing or wrong, but I need to tell you because the feelings that I imprisoned in the depths of my heart are not allowing me to live life like I used to live it before.
Sanjana, if my life could be split into two halves, it's going to be before you and after you. Before you came, my life was grey and colorless. Once my eyes landed on you for the first time, I felt as if an angel had landed on earth and opened the gates of heaven, shipping me into a bright colourful world. The transformation was instant and I could still relive that moment. There are two important persons in my life for which I am grateful for, one is Adarsh and another is none other than you. My journey with Adarsh taught me 'what life is' and you taught me 'who I am'.
I've seen many girls even before you. But my life has gone crazy ever since the day you arrived. I still remember the day I saw you for the first time, my heart started beating faster like never before. At that moment, I felt as if I acquired superpowers and my life was never the same as it used to be before. There was a complete shift in the way I used to work, live, sleep, talk and whatnot? And that change was propelled by looking at the enormity of dedication that you bestowed upon your job. I swear, you disturbed me to such an extent that you became the first thing on my mind when I wake up and you are the last thing on my mind before I go to sleep.
In my journey with you, you taught me that one should carry out a random act of kindness with no expectation of reward. This one random act that I performed brought me close to the purpose of my life and I can't tell you that purpose as of now. When you are near, I don't have any control over my breath. If I had all the time in the world, the only thing I want is to keep talking with you. I don't know what has changed me, every time I tried my best to find the answer and every time I lost. It is then I realized my soul has decided to become your slave.
Sanjana! I am saying this from the bottom of my heart. I love you.. Yes! I love you... because you are yourself and I love you a lot because you made me be myself and you have shown me the purpose of my life. I don't know whether you will accept me or not, if I didn't tell you today I would not only be cheating on myself but also I will be cheating on you as it is a crime to hide your feelings that you have on someone whom you love. Once again, I love you Sanjana! Even before I decided to open up my heart to you, I once again questioned myself why you are so special to me? My mind once again drifted into oblivion and the only way I could get the answer is from you. I am not forcing you to love me. It's up to your discretion and you are free to choose. And whatever you decide will be your right decision and I respect it.
Sanjana closed her eyes. For a moment she felt like sinking fast into a quicksand. She tried reaching Karthik on his mobile but couldn't reach him as Karthik had already removed the sim card from his mobile.