The Confession

I have a confession to make, neither to the police nor to anybody else. I want to make a confession to my dear conscience. I just want to make it believe that I agree that I was wrong.

It was my mistake. I'm guilty.

I knew my conscience would never betray me, yet I listened to it and ignored it.

I thought I was nothing in front of them, my mates." They can do it, they can reach their heights, their heights which is a lot higher than mine.", this is what I thought. My conscience opposed and said, " No! it isn't true. You are being betrayed by the surroundings.", but I won't listen, because I never like to admit that I was wrong. I lost my self-esteem, the most important ingredient to cook up a victory. I didn't realize that I was destroying my gold mine of glee and victory. But, this of course my co-earthlings knew, who actually behind the drapes were looking for a perfect opportunity to rise above me. I couldn't fight them because I had then become a vamp without extra pointy and extra sharp canines who couldn't fight for fear of being insulted of being different and weak.

Having no self-confidence and lacking self-esteem in yourself is the biggest crime we do to ourselves. This I realized when I encountered in my life the most horrible kind of losses. Those losses were like getting the title of a loser in a competition without even participating in it.

Every crime deserves a punishment and so, this is my punishment, "Their rise and my fall", And so I agree that I was wrong because before anyone else, respect should be given to ourselves. In that part be a little selfish it will help you too a lot.

I had lost out in every field, the one too in which once upon a time I was a scholar. I didn't had confidence in myself to compete with others. I thought I will lose; always. I didn't have self- esteem and so thought, not about mine, but others mastery in things in which I too was a master though. 

Well, now I know I was wrong and so I make my confession. I have committed a crime and I'm guilty of it.

So I say, listen to your conscience it will tell you what is right and what is wrong (which is too hard for all of us to agree with). And also, what I learned from it is, "Never lose self-confidence of which 'Hope' is also a part, because if you lose it, then you will lose everything".