Taking Advise From Stranger

Today, I was analysing the things that are making me feel anxious for a long time.

Sometimes, when I use LinkedIn, during uploading my information related to my skills and career I feel it is worth it to use this platform to make a good CV?. 

LinkedIn is a very open platform where anyone can see your skills and educational background. When I fill in some skills then later I delete it because I feel this is not necessary here to fill it or this is not the right time to upload my achievements. Sometimes this makes me feel I am wasting my time doing this. But I also want to connect to people from different professions. but at the same time, people will not be able to see what I am doing as a career in my personal life. People may think that I am becoming secretive. But I want to wait for the right time to talk about myself publically. 

Many of the things make me anxious that something will go wrong. Even when I am talking to my friends I sometimes think it is the right time or the right person to share my things with them. If not, who is that trustworthy person then? I don't know where he/she is and when they will come. When I keep my things to myself I feel suffocating like I feel crying. I keep thinking that this person has been thinking this about me, he has this intention for me and so on. Even I am not even sure if this is real or not. 

 When I feel that nothing is helping me to come out of the problems I sometimes use tarot cards reading to know myself on youtube videos, to see what suggestions the tarot card reader is giving. Last time, when I saw a video to do Pick a card reading, Reader told me that something has hit me very hard and that my life has taken a turning point. She advised me to communicate with people, not just keep thinking in my brain that this might be true. When I listened to the tarot card reader I was shocked and happy that finally, someone is helping me without taking anything. I followed the suggestions, and things became clearer than before. 

I felt that time, If anything that is helping me to grow ahead and making my life fruitful I will stop myself to ask for help.