Lachesism
Lachesism
Repetition of identical chaos
leads to monotony, often.
And when monotony becomes normality,
it reduces to a mere dictionary word
and a noun.
I am so used to chaos that
normality makes me apprehensive.
On the contrary, I am thin-skinned
and defensive.
Surviving the bone-jarring feeling
of an aftershock or
Pulling through the damage and debris
caused by a super-storm or
Sustaining through the topples and slides
of mudslides,
Whim-whams of stumbling
and teetering on the brink.
Terror mixed with a tinge of thrill,
thrown into a series of hurdles
to escape from another
afternoon of mundanity.
Curious and anxious,
I am willing to know the
odds of survival.
Removed the headgear, let my guards down.
Surrendered the sword, slacked my shoulders.
Unclenched my fist, unenthusiastic.
I feel exhausted and traumatized -
breathless sighs, quickened pulses,
trembling muscles, cold sweats.
There is an intense pleasure
in surviving a moderate pain -
jolting me out of this existence and
resulting in larger appreciation
for the little things in life.
Replace the shocks, storms and slides
with abuse, rejections and betrayals.
Hold on and focus on healing -
write essays and ode to yourself.