Hiding from reality like a shadow I lurked in the darkness standing behind people to always play safe and never get hurt, life was filled with fake smiles and fake companions. Smiling hard as I could to supporting people in their journey and forgetting my journey, I had no choice of my own always thinking it was better than someone else made choice for me, cause I feared failure, I feared pain that fear made me stand behind people as their shadow and not casting my own shadow like others. Still cast aside like a stranger during happy moments by so-called friends, life was pretty much waste of time. That loneliness paved way for her into my life. Caught in the endless cycle of mechanical life I met her accidentally for the first time . Actually it wasn't the first time I had known her since childhood but that day I saw a different side of her . Her smiles were brighter more charming more interesting. I got really hooked up to her. My everyday was filled with her . Her smiles and cries were really making my heart skip a beat. As I told about her to the people I considered friends they were like,"why are you close with her, she's not our type we are proper adults " as we were on the verge of ending our high school and go on our own journey to the adult world.
But my mind could never accept that seeing her everyday she taught me one thing to be what I am and not what others want me to be. Our bond grew stronger in time as she recited various tales of bravery, misery, love, and many more. Her creativity was on a different level and I was completely lost in her world. Her stories and different ideas gave me that push to believe that even I can change. That was the beginning of the changing which helped me built up my character and my creativity. As my high school ended it was time to decided what to do next, everyone had plans or their parents did and they took that path. I was hoping the same from my parents too, to show me a path to grow. And they showed me a path to take up and go to the next level of life. But slowly and steadily my time with her had changed me from inside breaking away my insecurities pulling me up to venture on my own.
She transformed me mentally into someone different from who I was before and I decided to take a different path on my own. Standing up for the first time I put forward my choice to my family, as my parents thought it was my choice to make, they gave the green signal to my choice. My choice took me away from my family into a whole new life with the knowledge she shared with me I went to start up a new life. That journey turned out to be a trip to hell but I enjoyed it cause it was my choice. Her influence made me change a lot. Still, she's there with me living in the virtual world. People call her cartoon or anime here. She may be a child's timepass but for me, she opened up a world and taught me things none ever could. She may not be a person or object she's just a digital code.