Dairy #1 IV

04/04/2023

Tuesday 

11:17am

Dear Dairy 

 

When you are attached both emotionally and mentally to that person and you have started to experience thanatophobia then that means you're ripping yourself inside and broken without any remedy. You search for the remedy and the dream when the right person appears you feel more comfortable and just blast all your tears, shout, scream and a tight hug from the person who feels you have the solution. May dreams come true but the memories which are fading are not the current situation as the temporary emotions are all based on you thinking, thinking, thinking... going deeper into indulgent in your thoughts and creating illusions which are affecting me as the suffocation of Bipolar disorder person. The remedy is near, words and presence are near but the distance gets increasing and the day you leave me. I'm a crackpot with corpse...

With love 

S