A tragedy

I was on cloud nine . "Life is a wonderful game" I said to myself. An unexpected person comes into your life and add colours to your black and white story. I never accepted to receive love from a stranger.Never in my dreams I thought I could feel all these feelings and now it's happening with me... I just can't imagine. I still think it's a dream.... Everything was running smoothly until that day.

It was Saturday. I reached the class by 6:50 am in the morning. Like always our class was half empty. Before further let me describe you the current scenario. We are in class 9th. Our summer holidays have just ended and classes has started since last week. We are still good friends and our secret is working just perfect.

 

Ok , so I began to scan my eyes to get glimpse of him but couldn't find his . This is unusual because he never skipped classes . As it is raining heavily I thought he might caught a fever. The whole day I kept thinking about him. The next day was Sunday so we couldn't talk. None of us had personal mobile phone. We just use whatsapp and no other social media. It was almost impossible to talk after school.

Anyways Monday arrived after a long wait... I rushed to the classroom. I was early then usual. I scanned the entire class but can't find his. May be I am too early. I kept waiting eagerly to see him but there was no sign of him .What has happened!! I wondered ....a day passed, then other.. and likewise 2 more weeks passed. No one in the class know about his whereabouts. My mind was puzzled. It was filled with thousands of questions but he wasn't there to ans any...

I decided to call him today . It's not that I haven't tried to connect to him . I messaged him number of times but no reply. I had called his twice earlier but no one answered. I had just received rejection till date . But luck was on my side today. He finally picked up the call . Oh I just can't express how relieving his sounds was for me . Even today I remember every line and every word of that 1 minute conversation.

Me :Hey , where are you. Are you okkk ..??? What is happened? Why have you been missing school since 2 weeks ??

He ( interrupting me ) : I am fine . I will be returning back after a week . Am currently in my hometown 

He sounded sad, hollow from inside. I have many things to ask but just asked a single question 

Me : Is everyone fine in your family?

He : I lost my grandfather...

I know he loved him by heart. I have lost my grandfather long back when I was just one year old. My parents still tell me every story of him.How much he loved me , cared for me , had lots of sleepless nights because of me....I don't have a single memory of him ...just in a year I loved him so much....He had spent lots of time with him grandfather. Have fresh memories and losing him would have broken him from within. By God grace I haven't lost my loved one and today I am really thankful for that .... I just can't measure the pain he is in right now . I wanted to console him. Be with him , share him pain...but what am I doing just nothing...my mind was processing all of it when he said something that broke me,no not me us...

He : Listen , focus on the upcoming exam. And umm... Forget the past ... Things have changed and me too .... Ok I am hanging on ... Please don't call again, you don't know the situation here ..Bye.

What he just said ... I want to clarify. What do he mean ... Above all I want to pacify him.. You are not alone....I am their with you. Don't worry everything will come to place...but before I could say the call ended....

I just don't know what is going on.....what is my mistake. How easily can he say forget the past .....I know he is sad but that doesn't mean he can just say anything insensitive.....tears rolled down my eyes ... Thankfully I was alone at home. When we come to a situation when we just can't do anything and what ever we are suffering is not our mistake but it's destiny we can just cry ...... And I did the same ...

Nothing came to a pause . I went to school attend the class ..but something that change was us . He and me ..... He said it right. I need to focus on my studies..but we can manage both the things together study does not mean no friends...After all of this how can you expect someone to focus on their work . It is easy to say than to do ...I was shouting crying lot many things was going within me but I just can't express it to anyone.... I am worse . I am not good looking. I haven't done my best for him . I don't deserve him ....I should have told him how important he is to me . I took him granted.....I ..I and I .... I began to doubt my own self . When you can't see your own self in the mirror trust me you the in deepest pain . What people would think is the second question but what you think about yourself is the most important question. People come and go in life . I have lost many friends all this while but losing him was a nightmare. Losing people is my biggest fear ...Someday or the other we have to accept the destiny...

He joined school after 2 weeks but indeed everything was changed.. Human lives in hope and I was living on hope of him . May be today he would just return back to him previous version....We talked sometimes but just formally. I never asked him nor he said anything about the topic. I tried talking to him but he always ignored and I gave up . People come and go in the journey of life. Some stay for a while and teaches you a lesson of life . Others stay to give life time memories but very few remain for life time . I wished he was among those very few people but sadly he wasn't... What he has given me are the memories that is stored in my heart forever.......

We passed class 10th and it was time to start a new life...