A New Beginning

Sacrifice, patience, and being left with no other choices are some of my best companions in my life. When I was a kid, I was not much involved in the family. I used to play, go to school, and do my homework and daily routines. When I had a sibling, I felt like I was not being concerned by the family members. The school was my home in my childhood days. I was excel in my academics. I don't have any desires and as far as I remember I didn't throw any tantrums to buy new things. And also I was not stubborn and adamant to buy new stuff in my childhood days. I always felt contented with what I had. My mother used to tell me if I want money ask for more and don't be too honest. But as far as I know, I always used to tell my father what I actually need. I never asked for more other than my demands or needs. My father used to give me the amount that I have asked for. My mom scolds me, "When you will change?" And don't be too open and straightforward in your life. It actually helped me and at the same time, it ruined me too. Still, now I have not changed much. I won't hide any things from my parents. Even if it is not a big thing to tell and also if I tell, for sure I will get punishment, I won't hide. I used to tell my father everything he was the pillar of our family. My father is no more now. My younger sister was my dad's pet. She used to buy toys, accessories like watches, slippers and whatever she wants or she wishes, the list will go on. I was very scared of my father in my childhood days. As a topper in my academics, my parents have provided me with all the things I needed for my studies. Other than that I won't ask anything for sure. I was left with no other choices to select in my life. 

As days passed, I finished my master's degree in engineering as per my dad's wish. Being too straightforward, open, and honest, I was not able to choose the course, college, or even my career too. As I said earlier I used to tell my father everything that had ruined my decision-making capability. But I never regret that. Sometimes I would get confused, and scared, and sometimes I would get influenced by others' words, behavior, and attitude. But whenever I started a process I never ever thought of giving up. Even though it was my dad's wish, I always wanted to make my parents feel proud of me. Though it was not my wish to stay there, I always changed the place as mine for sure. But I chose my life partner and conveyed my desire for him to my parents. They were left with no other choices. I said that I won't marry someone for their wish. I have struggled a lot with my marriage. Finally, we both got married with our parent's support. After a couple of months of my marriage, I lost my father. He was sick for nearly around five to six months. All my marriage preparations were executed by my father on his sick days. But I never expect that I would lose him within a short span of time.

Life has to move on right. Till now I haven't changed much. Sharing all my little things with my family has now become a habit for me. In the place of my father, my mother and my siblings take the charge at present. I have changed a little only for myself and not for others. My dad used to tell me that when you are in a confused state leave that thing to God and surrender yourself completely to God. Whatever happens, just thank God for the blessings showered on you and for the day which is given to you. A rock-like problem will melt in the name of God. I just get collapsed in making a decision but finally when I take charge I never ever thought of giving up. I always had huge support from God. 

I was gifted with a baby boy after a year of my marriage. He is exactly the replica of my dad in his character. He never requests or asks me to do things. He always used to order me to make a favour for him. I think of my dad at times when he behaves like him. He used to call my name and I wish the same too. Whenever I feel down, I pray to God that things would get changed soon and everything would be alright. When you move closer to God you can see all the things will fall in place. Be happy. Spread happiness and positivity. Don't be rude and rugged to others. Don't be jealous and greedy. Feel content and get satisfied with your belongings. Enjoy your life. Even at your bad times don't forget the people who helped you when you were in need and Call God. Thank him whenever possible. In my career and in my personal life, I am still struggling to find a better version of myself. I always hope that good things are on their way. Help the needy. Do the good deeds and for sure you will get good things in return. Think twice before you start work but never think to quit for any reason. Love your parents, siblings, friends, partner, and kids. Accept them as they are. Believe in yourself. Trust God and keep faith in him. Love and spread your love. Speak out for your problems and find a solution for them then and there. Don't postpone things and don't be lazy too. Be responsible. Live and let others live too. Every story will have an ending, make yours happy.