A gentle Reminder SELF LOVE

       I met one of my friend few days back. She suddenly hugged me and started crying. In the mid of the street, I felt little embarrassed. She forgot people looking at us. I too felt like “ why the hell she is crying”? Then I decided to took her to restaurant and to have a good conversation with her. It’s being long time we hadn’t met. In the so called busy world it’s exactly difficult to manage a lot of things. 

     She is a housewife, had a kid and her husband stayed abroad. I still remember her love for desserts so I ordered her favourite Brownie with a scoop of vanilla ice cream. She again started crying. I was like “ oh god why the hell she is crying “? She is mature enough and is a mother now. I console her and asked her the reason for crying to which she replied she had no body in her life to share her feelings, thoughts with. After her marriage everything changes and she had nobody to sit with her. Suddenly she started scolding me “ you too don’t have time Tanu, you are so a busy bee that you don’t even send me a good morning message” . Remember Tanu , in school days we used daily call each other land phones share good morning and good night. A flash back suddenly appeared in front of me. What had I become, a machine without feelings. Receiving a good morning message is great. They act as a sign that we are cared for, thought of, adored by someone. They are a reminder one we perhaps shouldn’t need but sometimes do that we are appreciate in our entireties. But now I had seen the facts of life.

      I hold her hand and said Ria why the hell you need someone to appreciate you. Remember we all deserve to have a beautiful morning and a fantastic day, regardless of who loves us or not. Just because someone is not around to appreciate the complexities of who you are doesn’t mean that you deserve anything less than pure joy. We are lovable. Ria keep in mind you still deserve to have a good day, even when there is no one there to wish it to you. You will always belong to yourself. I personally never get a Good Morning message. I don’t have a single person so close to me to remember me daily not even my family and I had accepted this fact. But then I used to think the other way out like I never sent a single message to anyone though. And Ria I can’t give you fake promises assuring I will send you messages daily which I will definitely forget someday. Hope kills.

     Ria dear find your way to fuel your flame when no one else remembers to, because the world needs the light you give off. You had a beautiful kid, make her your own world. Grow with her and live like a child again. Don’t expect anything from anyone. It’s 9 PM now we shared our numbers and we started leaving, she hold my hands and said Tanu who do you have in your life who gave you so much positivity and I smiled and entered the cab. I didn’t said her my life my story and my pain. The positivity I had today is from within only. She had a husband though abroad and a caring kid but I had none…… I am Alone but not lonely